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this does not necessarily reflect on the quality of their recovery. okay i have a few minutes before i have to run, in fact, i do believe i will run and come back to this in a little bit, instead of rushing through.
okay 2 hours later and i am back. so as i sit this afternoon after a full day, it is only fitting that i get back to the only promise of the fellowship in which i choose to recover. so for the promise of freedom is one of many facets. the first and foremost is that just for today i HAVE a choice whether or not i will use. that looms quite large in the mind of this addict, because i came to recovery lacking choice in so many areas of my life that i had come to believe that i was still choosing to use, instead of being driven by a NEED to use. that distinction was not apparent to me, until my obsession to use was removed, even then i could still trip back oh so fondly to ≴the day” when using was my life, and spin it into the good times it was not. life in the FREEDOM of active addiction has opened up many avenues for me, to list them all would be tiresome and boring. needless to say, the gratitude i feel for having found this FREEDOM is immeasurable. what i feel grateful for right here and now, however, is that i can be more than i ever was, and that comes directly from the FREEDOM from active addiction. there are days when i wish i could bottle this and force feed it to those i hear griping about how hard it is to get clean. i am certain, once they tasted that elixir that the concerns about affluence and status would be diminished.
anyhow, it is time to relax and take it easy. life is good this afternoon, i got to sit and talk with another addict and that always fills my spiritual cup. so satisfied spiritually and financially i think i will sign-off and move into something fun, it is after all a GREAT day to be clean!

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