Blog entry for:

Mon, Oct 24, 2011 07:28:23 AM


§ using the spiritual tools i have gained in recovery §
posted: Mon, Oct 24, 2011 07:28:23 AM

 

i am willing and able to make responsible choices. although sometimes, i am not quite certain what they are!
this is a continuation from my share at the meeting last night. i have the enormous amount of new information that feels like is in a funnel, and the neck of that funnel is very narrow. in my 10th step last night and again in my 11th, this morning, i started to get a glimpse of what is going on within me, and where some of this mass quantities of new stuff may start to fit. one thing is for certain, i am asking to let go of my latest obsession, every single time it comes up, apparently, some of the stuff i thought as true was not and that is part of recovery. i made assumptions based on incomplete information, and although i was not totally wrong about what i thought was happening, in fact in most respects i was spot on. where my error lay, was in what that really meant to the people involved. everything subject to interpretation by me is subject to being in error, i get that this morning, and that is why i am not making a new decisions about what is mulling around inside of me this morning. i have more than enough stuff on my plate to keep me occupied without having to jump into the stuff of others, or even worse give away what little personal power i may have.
it was a wonderful weekend, and this morning i can accept that i am responsible for the consequences of my actions. i can live with that, and i can also live with the fact that i am responsible for using what little power i do have, to better my life instead of make it worse.
this morning, i want to live, i want to be better and most importantly i want to allow myself enough time to finish processing what needs to be processed and see where i end up at, when all of that is said and done.
what does that mean?
well perhaps new service commitments. perhaps an alteration in my relationships with sponsees. certainly an alteration with my social relationships and more than likely an alteration in my relationship with myself. i have a relationship with the POWER that fuels my recovery that will provide the framework for whatever it is, that is going on inside of me, and for that i am grateful this morning. so it is into the shower and down to the office i go, for another day filled with doing something new and different.

∞ DT ∞

 

djtConsulting Brand
The views expressed on this page are solely the opinion of the author.
While the author is a member of a 12 Step recovery fellowship, these writings are not intended to endorse or express the published wisdom of any fellowship.
These writings are not meant to be socially or politically correct, and if you take issue with any opinions expressed, please seek the guidance of someone wiser than me.

Another Look!

taking some responsibility 176 words ➥ Sunday, October 24, 2004 by: donnot
∞ responsible recovery ∞ 373 words ➥ Monday, October 24, 2005 by: donnot
α my existence takes on new meaning as i accept responsibility α 331 words ➥ Tuesday, October 24, 2006 by: donnot
∞ the further i go in recovery, the less i avoid responsibility ∞ 263 words ➥ Wednesday, October 24, 2007 by: donnot
∞ as i learn how to effectively practice spiritual principles … 184 words ➥ Friday, October 24, 2008 by: donnot
⇔ i am not responsible for addiction, only for my recovery ⇔ 669 words ➥ Sunday, October 24, 2010 by: donnot
∏ by applying the principles of the fellowship where i choose to recover, ∏ 669 words ➥ Wednesday, October 24, 2012 by: donnot
∑ applying what i am learning in recovery, ∑ 623 words ➥ Thursday, October 24, 2013 by: donnot
→ i take responsibility for my recovery ← 528 words ➥ Friday, October 24, 2014 by: donnot
¢ responsibility ¢ 660 words ➥ Saturday, October 24, 2015 by: donnot
✓ i do not  ✔ 671 words ➥ Monday, October 24, 2016 by: donnot
🌟 learning how 🌟 446 words ➥ Tuesday, October 24, 2017 by: donnot
🏱 am i taking 🏲 420 words ➥ Wednesday, October 24, 2018 by: donnot
😓 making responsible choices 😖 566 words ➥ Thursday, October 24, 2019 by: donnot
🙄 willing and able 🙃 460 words ➥ Saturday, October 24, 2020 by: donnot
🍼 one of 🍾 429 words ➥ Sunday, October 24, 2021 by: donnot
📈 the quality 📈 384 words ➥ Monday, October 24, 2022 by: donnot
🤔 conscience 🤔 524 words ➥ Tuesday, October 24, 2023 by: donnot
Spacer Image

☯ The Tao that can be spoken is not the eternal Tao ☯

THE TAO TEH KING, OR THE TAO AND ITS CHARACTERISTICS
by Lao-Tse
Translated by James Legge

Book 1

3) We meet it and do not see its Front; we follow it, and do not see
its Back. When we can lay hold of the Tao of old to direct the things
of the present day, and are able to know it as it was of old in the
beginning, this is called (unwinding) the clue of Tao.