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🌦 i am powerless 🌤
posted: Thursday the 20th of July, 2017 07:43:22 AM
i accept that i am an addict. i accept that i am powerless over my addiction. i accept that i am powerless over what others do and think, i do NOT accept that i have to remain powerless, as i do have a strong relationship with a HIGHER POWER and the FAITH that i will be given the opportunity to procure everything that i need today. part of the power i ask for, every morning, is the ability to stay clean today. today i have the desire for a new job and a re-fi on our home. the re-fi is in process and i have a quick follow-up with a recruiter this afternoon. the problem is one of timing. now that the re-fi is in process, i changing jobs among the many other activities that i am precluded from doing, as the paperwork grinds through the process. well i actually COULD, as that IS in my power, i WILL NOT, by choice, to keep the bankers happy to keep the money train rolling down the track. i can CHOOSE to see myself as powerless in this instance, or can i accept that even though i have power, exercising it may not be a prudent choice.
when it comes to addiction, however, i am not quite so fortunate. it is true, that this morning i CHOSE to stay clean and ask for the power to do so. i accepted that power form the POWER that fuels my recovery and a as result, i am not obsessing about when and how to get high. what is tripping all my triggers though is how am i going to explore new job opportunities while getting a piece of finances done? where i am ending up is that i need not worry. i have not even had a real interview yet, much less a job offer, so i guess i have to eat my own words of “wisdom” and surrender all of that intro the care of the POWER that fuels my recovery, plainly, simply and just for right now. speaking of jobs, it is time to wrap this up and head on down to the office, after all i still need to keep the paychecks rolling in as well.
∞ DT ∞
While the author is a member of a 12 Step recovery fellowship, these writings are not intended to endorse or express the published wisdom of any fellowship.
These writings are not meant to be socially or politically correct, and if you take issue with any opinions expressed, please seek the guidance of someone wiser than me.
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☯ The Tao that can be spoken is not the eternal Tao ☯
Translated by James Legge
2) We should blunt our sharp points, and unravel the complications
of things; we should attemper our brightness, and bring ourselves
into agreement with the obscurity of others. How pure and still the
Tao is, as if it would ever so continue!