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🌥 recovering my serenity 🌤
posted: Tuesday the 23rd of January, 2018 08:38:54 AM

 

because of more than a few issues with my morning routine, i am without a doubt, in need of a bit of serenity, this morning. i have been worried about trhis and that, because my expectations have not been met, and yet, i am still unwilling to look at all things over which i have no power. of course, my response, is to take things into my own hands and make a few moves that could have waited until i allowed the events of today to play out. worry is without a doubt, lack of FAITH and i was severely lacking in any FAITH this morning, as i sat trying to get stuff done. sitting here now, writing about my insanity i see that taking a breath and moving along, is probably my best course of action.
as i was looking for how to get this little ditty started i read my entry from last year, and yes, there was a whole lot of shaking going on at that time as well. i was upset about politics, which are still the same, i was upset about how one of the meetings i liked to attend, was no longer doing anything for me, and i stopped attending that meeting. in general, i was just fed up and disgusted with my life at that minute and the events of the past year have brought me more than a bit of confusion, uncertainty and doubt in where i am going, outside of the rooms. this morning, however, as i sit here and start to Loki at what is really going on, i find that no matter how bad i want to paint my life, it is actually pretty darn good, all i have to do, is appreciate a bit of what i have and stop trying to grasp what i do not necessarily need.
perhaps. i have finally reached the spot where i can put pen to paper and move into a whole different set of gripes and complaints about my step work. maybe i will go out and but myself a SuperBowl trip, all inclusive. maybe i will go get a tattoo. or maybe, i will allow myself the FREEDOM to do absolutely nothing and see what comes of it. some of the time, sitting on my hands is really the best course of action.

∞ DT ∞

 

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Another Look!

ω wot? i have to maintain my recovery? ω 533 words ➥ Monday, January 23, 2006 by: donnot
∞ in recovery, life can get pretty hectic. ∞ 332 words ➥ Tuesday, January 23, 2007 by: donnot
μ my recovery depends on my daily maintenance program. μ 457 words ➥ Wednesday, January 23, 2008 by: donnot
∞ i cannot afford to let one **bad day,** complete with a bad attitude, ∞ 356 words ➥ Friday, January 23, 2009 by: donnot
√ for whatever reason, i may discover that my serenity is slipping √ 361 words ➥ Saturday, January 23, 2010 by: donnot
ƒ lack of daily maintenance can show up in many ways ƒ 658 words ➥ Sunday, January 23, 2011 by: donnot
½ i can take a moment to ask myself ½ 674 words ➥ Monday, January 23, 2012 by: donnot
‡ whatever the reason, when i finally detect that ‡ 606 words ➥ Wednesday, January 23, 2013 by: donnot
† when my attitude heads downhill, † 371 words ➥ Thursday, January 23, 2014 by: donnot
¿ have i ever had a perfect stranger × 620 words ➥ Friday, January 23, 2015 by: donnot
☲ serenity check ☵ 678 words ➥ Saturday, January 23, 2016 by: donnot
⇗ am i suffering ⇖ 821 words ➥ Monday, January 23, 2017 by: donnot

☯ The Tao that can be spoken is not the eternal Tao ☯

THE TAO TEH KING, OR THE TAO AND ITS CHARACTERISTICS
by Lao-Tse
Translated by James Legge

Book 2

2) Constant action overcomes cold; being still overcomes heat. Purity
and stillness give the correct law to all under heaven.