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posted: Friday the 26th of May, 2017 08:31:18 AM


expectation of any sort of reward. humans are flawed, that is a fact. to expect any and all people in a group to act without expectation of a reward, would be setting oneself up for a big disappointment. the POWER the reading speaks of, is what happens when a recovering addicts come together to mutually support each other in their journeys out of active addiction.
speaking for myself, and myself only, i am not sure that i attend meetings or reach out to my peers in an altruistic manner, more than likely there is some pay-off for me, that i may or may not be consciously aware of, running around inside my head. that fact makes me feel grateful, that i am not the group, nor any sort of recover guru or spiritual giant. i have been a poser often enough in my life and my recovery, that today, i am doing my best to become something more than a recovery shill. it certainly part of the reason i take such exception to those who are “all about the newcomer,” and always have a “positive report.” knowing who and what i am, i project those traits onto others, and instead of giving them the benefit of the doubt, i assume that they, like me, are trying to pump, preen and look good for their peers. the truth, as much as i hate to admit it, is perhaps they are sincere in their efforts, and it is me that has the problem.
that is the beauty of the group, the whole overwhelms my shortcomings and imperfections and i GET to participate as a member of that collective mindset, which for an addict that is struggling with coming to terms with a HIGHER POWER is certainlya great place to start.
time for me to go make the doughnuts.

∞ DT ∞

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Another Look!

↔ opening my eyes, my heart and my mind ↔ 260 words ➥ Thursday, May 26, 2005 by: donnot
∞ looking for a bit of evidence ∞ 289 words ➥ Friday, May 26, 2006 by: donnot
α the first practical exposure many of i had to a Higher Power is in the group. Ω 541 words ➥ Saturday, May 26, 2007 by: donnot
α the fact that addicts keep coming to meetings, day after day, ω 345 words ➥ Monday, May 26, 2008 by: donnot
α when i look around with an open mind, i will be able to identify signs of a HIGHER POWER ω 482 words ➥ Tuesday, May 26, 2009 by: donnot
… when i fully accept the depth of my own powerlessness over addiction … 502 words ➥ Wednesday, May 26, 2010 by: donnot
∫ my understanding of a Higher Power is up to me ∫ 812 words ➥ Thursday, May 26, 2011 by: donnot
— i can and will open my mind to THE POWER that is the group — 405 words ➥ Saturday, May 26, 2012 by: donnot
∧ i have a hard time with the idea of a Higher Power ∧ 786 words ➥ Sunday, May 26, 2013 by: donnot
∑ it does not matter if i call it God, ∑ 805 words ➥ Monday, May 26, 2014 by: donnot
α seeking the help α 774 words ➥ Tuesday, May 26, 2015 by: donnot
≍ the POWER ≍ 492 words ➥ Thursday, May 26, 2016 by: donnot

☯ The Tao that can be spoken is not the eternal Tao ☯

by Lao-Tse
Translated by James Legge

Book 1

Chapter 28

2) The unwrought material, when divided and distributed, forms vessels.
The sage, when employed, becomes the Head of all the Officers (of
government); and in his greatest regulations he employs no violent