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it is true that some of my fellow members meet with financial success in recovery, but ihese outward signs of prosperity is not the lot of all of us. this does not necessarily reflect on the quality of our recovery. so i could launch into a diatribe about appearances again, or i could quietly comment briefly on how social acceptability does not equal recovery. instead, i think that i have a different path in mind. although it may seem tangential to the topic at hand, perhaps it will fold back into the topic at hand.
so anyhow, thinking about the HOPE inherent in that single promise and looking at those around me, i am amazed at how those whose recovery i respect the most, always seem to go back to the single promise, and as best as i can, i try and emulate them as i live a program of recovery. yes i have some success, socially and financially, and yes, life is comfortable, although a bit tight right now, but it is not the comforts that keep me coming back. there was a time, in the not so distant past, where i was concerned about how much i could accumulate, that time was part of my active addiction and extended itself into my active recovery. it still nibbles around the corners of my conscious being every now and again. nibbling is one thing, it has been quite some time since i was obsessed with that idea, and when i start to go there, i think back to the single promise, FREEDOM FROM ACTIVE ADDICTION! having nice things and a comfortable life are not explicitly nor implicitly stated anywhere, and for this addict, that is a wonderful thing. that means, that regardless of my bank balance, my living situation, the age of my car, the state of my dress or undress, i can recover and live to receive that promise, FREEDOM for one more day, this day!
someday perhaps, i will be able to detach completely from the material world and the status that toys may bring. someday, perhaps i will become so spiritual that i will be able to concentrate solely on spiritual matters and leave the rest up to my HIGHER POWER. i am not, however, holding my breath, waiting for that some day to roll around,. no instead i will take responsibility for providing my daily bread, by doing what is put in front of me, and allow the promise, the only promise to be fulfilled in my life today.

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