Some memes

treated others as i would like to be treated? yesterday, i did not. i knew when i sprinted away, i was being less than accommodating. honestly, i have already forgiven myself, and it did not take a rationalization or justification. i chalked it up to being human. oh i have a shit ton of both of those ready to roll, as my opinion of them and their demanding and entitled actions would fill a cheap novel. this morning as i listened to what came back from my seed of “living by my values,” i heard a bit of fantasy football, a bit of the third volume of my latest creative writing project and a whole lot of start giving myself a fucking break. the former two come up just about every day, the latter one is new and quite unusual for me, as i am always the last person to whom i give the benefit of the doubt.
this morning, however, was one of those days where i had no desire to sit. in fact, i almost got up after thirty seconds with a “fuck it” attitude. i am glad i persevered as i am always more balanced and have a well of emotional stability to draw from, when i meditate for the full twenty minutes. i am not the most forgiving person as is evident in what i share and this notion of behaving my way to better thinking, is starting with behaving “as if” i forgive myself, at least today. i say the words, i make a valiant attempt to forgive myself and yes, i feel forgiven. perhaps that is the path i need to be going down, instead of dwelling in the land of my character defects.
it is time to get ready to head on over to my home group. i have a plan in mind for today and i will see what happens. yard work, some code practice, on-boarding, cooking dinner and a quiet Saturday night at home for a change. it is a great day to remember that yes, i am only human and yes i need to be as forgiving to myself as i am to those around me.

∞ DT ∞