a new reality
Posted: Fri, Oct 29, 2004 05:08:45 AM
well the new reality for me today means dealing with the fact that i am not the one to give up 60% of my liver to a close friend. i have yet to totally sort out my feelings about being disqualified as the donor but i do know that if i use the tools of this program and allow myself the chance to feel they will sort themselves out.
i would love to say that i always live in the here and now, not agonizing or glorifying my past nor fantasizing about my future. the truth is that i still engage in these flights of fancy from time to time. these trips out of reality usually come when i am dissatisfied or afraid of what is happening in the here and now. through the process of recovery i have a bit of self-understanding these days and i can see these for what they are:
·LIFE ON LIFE'S TERMS!
--DT --
i would love to say that i always live in the here and now, not agonizing or glorifying my past nor fantasizing about my future. the truth is that i still engage in these flights of fancy from time to time. these trips out of reality usually come when i am dissatisfied or afraid of what is happening in the here and now. through the process of recovery i have a bit of self-understanding these days and i can see these for what they are:
RUNNING AWAY!i may not always like what i find when i live in the moment, but if i use the tools i can handle, tolerate and learn to accept the situation for what it is
·LIFE ON LIFE'S TERMS!
--DT --