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Sat, Jul 18, 2009 10:09:00 AM
∞ my insanity had finally risen higher than my wall of denial, forcing me to get honest about my disease ∞
posted: Sat, Jul 18, 2009 10:09:00 AM
i had received the gift of desperation and, as a result, was able to accept the spiritual principles that makes it possible for me to recover. okay i have worked all i can, until someone gives me a hand, which may not happen today, so i am taking that to mean that the time is coming to shower and head out into this day.
anyhow, as i ponder the nature of my desperation when i first got clean, and compare it with the desperation i feel today, it is amazing what has changed. yes i am still desperate today, at least desperate to keep doing what i have been doing since i first got clean, you know pray, go to meetings and work steps with a sponsor. i may not be actually be writing a step right now, that does not mean i am not working a step. i am working on letting whatever needs to happen, happen.
instead of going on and on about nothing, i do believe i will sign-off and go join the family activity that is about to commence.
anyhow, as i ponder the nature of my desperation when i first got clean, and compare it with the desperation i feel today, it is amazing what has changed. yes i am still desperate today, at least desperate to keep doing what i have been doing since i first got clean, you know pray, go to meetings and work steps with a sponsor. i may not be actually be writing a step right now, that does not mean i am not working a step. i am working on letting whatever needs to happen, happen.
instead of going on and on about nothing, i do believe i will sign-off and go join the family activity that is about to commence.
∞ DT ∞
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☯ The Tao that can be spoken is not the eternal Tao ☯
by Lao-Tse
Translated by James Legge
Book 1
2) How irresolute did those (earliest rulers) appear, showing (by
their reticence) the importance which they set upon their words! Their
work was done and their undertakings were successful, while the people
all said, 'We are as we are, of ourselves!'