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i will reach out my hand to the still-suffering addict, offering that same fellowship to others. as i sit here this morning, over in the junction, i am struck once more with gratitude. i know that the reading yesterday was about gratitude, this morning however i am once again there. i am grateful the rooms were open, some one made the coffee, turned on the lights and was there when i finally stumbled into recovery, seething with anger and resentment. the irony was, that i came to the rooms seven months before i was ready for recovery, and the warmth i felt, i thought was just a bunch of bullsh!t. so when i am greet the newest members i remember how hard it was for me to accept what was being offered. my reaction to that feeling is to be warm but trying to force anything down anyone’s throat. my attitude back then was IF they were truly like me, and they kept saying they were, then there was a price to pay, if i chose to accept what they were offering, even if it was as simple as a warm greeting and a hug. you know, now that i think about it there was! that price i am still paying, because it is a debt beyond my capability to ever pay back. that debt? the opportunity of a life far beyond my most drug induced fantasies. this is a debt i repay gratefully an will continue to do so, through my service to the fellowship and the addict who is just walking in to the room. i may have left regional and area service behind me. i may have changed home groups, but service has become more to me than committee meetings and plans of how to keep the services my fellowship offers, available. the service i do today is sponsorship and support and most importantly giving the newest member a warm hug and the love of a fellowship that is ready to offer them the same opportunity i was offered way back when.
so anyhow, through my efforts i know that i can influence my home group to offer that same opportunity. speaking of service, i need to run and meet with the hotel for our convention. it has been quite a busy few weeks, and i expect my life to remain full for at least thee next few. my life is worth something today, so iot is time to go and pay it back.

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