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Fri, Jan 28, 2005 06:31:52 AM
∞ just an ordinary addict ∞
posted: Fri, Jan 28, 2005 06:31:52 AM
that is correct i am just an ordinary, garden variety addict. as such, i realize that i will never be cured, no matter what some people think. the good news is that i do have a choice today of whether i want to be free from active addiction or not. i can choose to allow my disease to run rampant and be miserable, or i can choose to treat it in the here and now. what is the miracle that affords me this choice, a simple program of recovery.
lately, all around me, i see the evidence of what the choice to not work a program of recovery can do. i have a friend in the hospital, that is fighting for his life, because he could not or would not accept on any level that he has the same disease as me. somewhere he got the notion that if only he went to a few meetings and used the language of recovery, he could stay clean. he ignores the fact that this program only works when we give up the silly notion that somehow, somewhere, that he would be able to successfully use. that somehow he is so fucking unique that he does not have to admit it himself that he is an addict just like me.
another friend is having trouble staying clean because he believes he is unique and is unwilling to take any simple suggestions.
if not for my dedication to myself through this program, i would be in similar or worse situations. one thing i do know is that i can choose to do those things that allow me another day of freedom from active addiction, or i can choose to believe that i have 'recovered' and return to the ravages of my disease.
TODAY I CHOOSE THE EASIER SOFTER WAY, TO PRACTICE A PROGRAM OF RECOVERY!
∞ DT ∞
lately, all around me, i see the evidence of what the choice to not work a program of recovery can do. i have a friend in the hospital, that is fighting for his life, because he could not or would not accept on any level that he has the same disease as me. somewhere he got the notion that if only he went to a few meetings and used the language of recovery, he could stay clean. he ignores the fact that this program only works when we give up the silly notion that somehow, somewhere, that he would be able to successfully use. that somehow he is so fucking unique that he does not have to admit it himself that he is an addict just like me.
another friend is having trouble staying clean because he believes he is unique and is unwilling to take any simple suggestions.
if not for my dedication to myself through this program, i would be in similar or worse situations. one thing i do know is that i can choose to do those things that allow me another day of freedom from active addiction, or i can choose to believe that i have 'recovered' and return to the ravages of my disease.
TODAY I CHOOSE THE EASIER SOFTER WAY, TO PRACTICE A PROGRAM OF RECOVERY!
∞ DT ∞
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While the author is a member of a 12 Step recovery fellowship, these writings are not intended to endorse or express the published wisdom of any fellowship.
These writings are not meant to be socially or politically correct, and if you take issue with any opinions expressed, please seek the guidance of someone wiser than me.
While the author is a member of a 12 Step recovery fellowship, these writings are not intended to endorse or express the published wisdom of any fellowship.
These writings are not meant to be socially or politically correct, and if you take issue with any opinions expressed, please seek the guidance of someone wiser than me.
Another Look!
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☯ The Tao that can be spoken is not the eternal Tao ☯
by Lao-Tse
Translated by James Legge
Book 1
2) I do not know its name, and I give it the designation of the Tao
(the Way or Course). Making an effort (further) to give it a name
I call it The Great.