โ just an ordinary addict โ
Posted: Fri, Jan 28, 2005 06:31:52 AM
that is correct i am just an ordinary, garden variety addict. as such, i realize that i will never be cured, no matter what some people think. the good news is that i do have a choice today of whether i want to be free from active addiction or not. i can choose to allow my disease to run rampant and be miserable, or i can choose to treat it in the here and now. what is the miracle that affords me this choice, a simple program of recovery.
lately, all around me, i see the evidence of what the choice to not work a program of recovery can do. i have a friend in the hospital, that is fighting for his life, because he could not or would not accept on any level that he has the same disease as me. somewhere he got the notion that if only he went to a few meetings and used the language of recovery, he could stay clean. he ignores the fact that this program only works when we give up the silly notion that somehow, somewhere, that he would be able to successfully use. that somehow he is so fucking unique that he does not have to admit it himself that he is an addict just like me.
another friend is having trouble staying clean because he believes he is unique and is unwilling to take any simple suggestions.
if not for my dedication to myself through this program, i would be in similar or worse situations. one thing i do know is that i can choose to do those things that allow me another day of freedom from active addiction, or i can choose to believe that i have 'recovered' and return to the ravages of my disease.
TODAY I CHOOSE THE EASIER SOFTER WAY, TO PRACTICE A PROGRAM OF RECOVERY!
∞ DT ∞
lately, all around me, i see the evidence of what the choice to not work a program of recovery can do. i have a friend in the hospital, that is fighting for his life, because he could not or would not accept on any level that he has the same disease as me. somewhere he got the notion that if only he went to a few meetings and used the language of recovery, he could stay clean. he ignores the fact that this program only works when we give up the silly notion that somehow, somewhere, that he would be able to successfully use. that somehow he is so fucking unique that he does not have to admit it himself that he is an addict just like me.
another friend is having trouble staying clean because he believes he is unique and is unwilling to take any simple suggestions.
if not for my dedication to myself through this program, i would be in similar or worse situations. one thing i do know is that i can choose to do those things that allow me another day of freedom from active addiction, or i can choose to believe that i have 'recovered' and return to the ravages of my disease.
TODAY I CHOOSE THE EASIER SOFTER WAY, TO PRACTICE A PROGRAM OF RECOVERY!
∞ DT ∞