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so here it is Thursday, less than 12 hours after i wrote me last entry and here i am wondering what i need to write about. i have not been keeping in active contact with my sponse, and that is nothing new for me. the men, who trust me to sponsor them, have been in regular contact with me, except, of course during my week off from everything. so what do i need to do today? well for one, i NEED to give Carlos a call and see if we can get together next week, secondly call one of the men i sponsor and just check up on how he is doing, perhaps two of my new guys would like a jingle from Mexico.
now that that soul-searching is done, what is it that keeps me with the same sponsor for all this time. Carlos, was not my first choice, as he was not part of my recovery experience for the first six months of my recovery. once i met him, i told myself he would never, ever be my sponsor, a he saw way too much about me. since my plan, way back when,, was to get off of paper and leave this lame recovery life behind, i never thought the day would come where i needed i real sponsor in a fellowship that was about to change my life. no first i had to self-sponsor, then i had to get someone close to home and finally, by default Carlos ended up my sponsor and fort hat end result i am so grateful today. i had to go through all of that to reach the place where i could finally have the best fVcking sponsor in the world, and for me, he is!
vacation, at least today, is severe enforced laziness. slept in and laid about in the morning and now it is after 9:00 and i have nor showered shaved or even had my first cup of coffee. so it is once again, into the breach i go, another boring day of reading and laying in the sun, watching the waves and the world go by.