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Wed, Jul 27, 2005 06:51:23 AM
α faith in a program α
posted: Wed, Jul 27, 2005 06:51:23 AM
well after a bit of time i am still not the most trusting person in the world. despite the evidence i see in my life and those with whom i share recovery, i still am hesitant to believe that this program is working or will ever work for me.
after all don't you know who i am???? i different from all those freaks that frequent the meetings i go to. i was not as bad or sick as they were so i can disqualify myself and move along -- there is nothing to see here anyway!
the lies go on from there!
the actual truth is, that when i live the program i have chosen to recover in, i do get better; i do grow; and i do change into the man GOD intended me to be. the evidence of this is demonstrated daily in my life, in my relationships and in my dealings with the normal world. i am not high anymore and you know what i am not the self-centered turd that i was when i came to recovery.
so just for today, i will live the program as best as i can and have faith that it is working just the way it is supposed to.
∞ DT ∞
after all don't you know who i am???? i different from all those freaks that frequent the meetings i go to. i was not as bad or sick as they were so i can disqualify myself and move along -- there is nothing to see here anyway!
the lies go on from there!
the actual truth is, that when i live the program i have chosen to recover in, i do get better; i do grow; and i do change into the man GOD intended me to be. the evidence of this is demonstrated daily in my life, in my relationships and in my dealings with the normal world. i am not high anymore and you know what i am not the self-centered turd that i was when i came to recovery.
so just for today, i will live the program as best as i can and have faith that it is working just the way it is supposed to.
∞ DT ∞
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These writings are not meant to be socially or politically correct, and if you take issue with any opinions expressed, please seek the guidance of someone wiser than me.
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☯ The Tao that can be spoken is not the eternal Tao ☯
by Lao-Tse
Translated by James Legge
Book 2
1) The government that seems the most unwise,
Oft goodness to the people best supplies;
That which is meddling, touching everything,
Will work but ill, and disappointment bring. Misery!--happiness is
to be found by its side! Happiness!--misery lurks beneath it! Who
knows what either will come to in the end?