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okay, go to admit it. every time i read this reading i feel a twinge of guilt, because i am not one of those rush the newcomer kind of members. no i am a sit back and let those who feel that need do that job, i like to sit back and let them come to me, which for some very bizarre reason, seems to be happening more and more lately. well maybe not bizarre, but certainly to my mind hard to explain, as i am not doing anything different that i have been doing. so what is it that is making me attract the new guys, as i now have a sponsee with less than 60 days and one with less than 9 months?
well i could go with cause, conditions and worrying about what it is i am and am not doing, or as i am beginning to sense right now, just “go with the flow!” what i am also sensing is that as i guide my newest sponsee through STEPS TWO and THREE, there will certainly be some landmines i will need to watch out for, but that is not today, nor is that going to happen any time in the very near future, so right here and right now, i can walk away from the “what might be,” and hit the right now.
which brings me back to the point of what i felt, what is it that is attractive about me to the newest members lately? maybe it is just the fact that i do not swarm them and allow them the freedom to approach me. maybe it is the fact that as this ELEVENTH STEP, works me, i am being transformed into a something more attractive, even though i am not part of the “A” list. what i feel is that i am being transformed as i let go of what i do not want and embrace that which attracts me. BTW: the meeting last night was much better for me, even though what was shared was probably not that much than Tuesday night. something in my attitudes and outlook had shifted in the course of those twenty-four hours and i was capable of hearing the message, that i lacked the ability to hear the night before.
anyhow, as i get ready to shower off and head out for a very looooong day, i have the HOPE that i can and will be a force for attraction to the fellowship, without promoting it. tonight i once again have the opportunity to let some of the still suffering see that there just may be a way out. it is after all a great day to be attractively clean :).

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