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of a spiritual nature are certainly one way to find some balance in my life. i have to admit, i should be in some sort of furious frenzy over the less than stellar manner that the sale of our time share is proceeding. i have cause to be anxious, nervous and very, very angry and yet, when i considered the state of affairs, i still am amazingly calm. i am more than grateful that i need not be flying off at every little thing today, because my pattern is one of “spreading the wealth,” when i am miserable, i spread that misery far and wide. that is not to say that the consequences of our decision to start the sale process are not wearing me down. it is and the spiritual path i have been taught to follow is allowing me the freedom to be at peace with where it happens to be today.
this whole being grateful for what i have gig, is new and different for me and quite unusual. i am more of a “where is the rest of what i want” kind of person. when i have to think about what i am grateful for, there is a disconnect from my “natural” reaction and my learned response. over the course of my recovery, as i grow up and into something more, all sorts of things have changed within me. even though i have been clean for a bit of time, i still hate to be taken for a ride and today, i had to put my foot down and tell someone to get off their a$$ and get something done. whether or not that will work, has yet to be seen, but i am at least moving forward with my life.

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