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and the one fact i need to accept to stay clean today is that i am just another addict, who is powerless over my addiction PERIOD! all else is irrelevant, at least in respect to how i will progress in my new life. i could write my memoirs and let the world know what an ‘Addict and Criminal’ i was during the course of my active addiction, but that would violate many of the spiritual principles i have come to cherish and apply to my new way of living.
so back to my original assertion of what i am and what i am definitely powerless over. when i accept the fact that i am an addict, i can surrender to the fact that i am powerless over my addiction and move forward. that simple surrender is all the footwork i need to do to get started on the path of recovery, and provides the framework i need to continue to stay clean on a day-to-day basis. by surrendering to my addiction i win freedom from active addiction. that creative freedom allows me to find the ways and means to stay clean day after day, even when i am not entirely pleased with how the events in my life are transpiring. i can accept the gift of surrender today and with that the byproducts of that gift, namely freedom from the life of a using addict, and the HOPE that no matter what happens today, i do not have to use anything. those gifts create a state of grace for me that is beyond any price and is worth all the effort i necessary to maintain it. so what exactly are the facts today?

1. i am now and always will be an addict
2. at any time i can choose to use again
3. but i can find a new way to live that is way beyond my wildest drug induced fantasies.

all i have to do is surrender and be free today, the rest will take care of itself!
∞ DT ∞