Some memes

reading this entry this morning i was struck by the simplicity of the message today. not that i will become a productive member of society, only that i CAN become more of a person who has the capability to contribute to the world around me, rather than take everything the world has to offer. yes i am still selfish and self-serving, and yes i still want all the gifts of hard labor, without doing any of the work but the difference is today, i can desire to be more than i was yesterday.
my sponsor warned me that this service event would be a life-changing event and as i am excited about what is happening around and within me. and what exactly is happening inside of me today? well, i once again feel secure in the belief that i am where i am supposed to be. yesterday i was full of self-doubt and wanted to run away and isolate inside my hotel room. instead i went to a meeting and talked with another addict about what is going on. this morning i woke full of confidence and self-acceptance of who i am and what i am doing here in california. i am just another addict who has chosen to stay clean another day and serve the fellowship that has given me the opportunities that fill my life these days.
serving GOD and OTHERS? sounds like a good idea today!

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