๐ณ i can become ๐ด
Posted: Sat, Nov 29, 2025 12:43:49 PM
rigid and defiant, refusing to bend. that seems to be the story of my life, or at least it certainly has been that way. as my time in recovery builds up, day by day, i am finding that way of living no only unacceptable but actually intolerable to me. that may be a good thing, as i can feel myself slipping into that mode, when i am actually paying attention. as bad as that may sound, the simple fact of my life is that is a choice i make, consciously or unconsciously these days, and as the bon mot goes, i can restart me day, at any time, choosing to live in a different manner.
making my way over to my home group this morning, i felt a certain calm, as i had an obstacle or two i needed to avoid. there was a time not all that long ago, where a stopped train on the road, would have sent me over the edge. it surprised me that i was paying enough attention to what was occurring that i could take an alternate route to arrive at my home group way too early. that was not a bad thing, but now i feel all sorts of rushed to get to work. i can be a bit more flexible in this instance and just let go of what is keeping me in my head and get moving. after all, i can always restart this day as well.
making my way over to my home group this morning, i felt a certain calm, as i had an obstacle or two i needed to avoid. there was a time not all that long ago, where a stopped train on the road, would have sent me over the edge. it surprised me that i was paying enough attention to what was occurring that i could take an alternate route to arrive at my home group way too early. that was not a bad thing, but now i feel all sorts of rushed to get to work. i can be a bit more flexible in this instance and just let go of what is keeping me in my head and get moving. after all, i can always restart this day as well.
∞ DT ∞