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anxiously plotting, struggling, planning, worrying -- none of these suffice.
and yet i expect them to. just like magic, all of a sudden i am back in self-will, working to create the outcomes i desire. what a lovely thought to start this fine day. sarcasm intended!
so the reading spoke to me about the THIRD STEP surrender and the ELEVENTH STEP channel of communication this morning and how for this addict, living in those two steps is an important thing to remember. why is this so important today? well for one, i have been running around from task to task, trying to get everything done for my clients, and as a result, accomplishing very little. as soon as i make a plan to focus exclusively on a single task i get distracted by another task screaming for my attention, so back and forth it goes until i end up doing very little. part of the solution for me was to say no yesterday when someone asked me to add yet another task to my ever growing list.
so what am i being told, is actually a fair question. well for one, slow down and take on no new work, at least for right now. i have more than enough and have provided with more than enough resources to provide for a comfortable manner of living. i also think i am being told that it is time to step aside from any more service commitments, complete those that i have already agreed to, and let go for a bit of time. and finally, find the means to express myself creatively with my hands instead of my computer, actually find a hobby other than watching the mindless drivel that comprises popular culture on the TV.
so how do i put this plan into action? a question that i do not need worry about! what i need to do is to stop, listen and feel my way through to the next right thing, which happens to feel like ending this little bit of writing and running into town to take care of the things i need to care for this morning. and on that note TA-TA FOR NOW!

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