ฮด a willingness to let go of my preconceived ideas and opinions opens the channel for spiritual guidance to light my way ฮด
Posted: Wed, Nov 15, 2006 09:32:37 AM
well it has been quite a morning so far, i woke up early and decided there was really nothing to do, so i pretended to sleep for another hour, and boy did i get slammed. anyhow the major fires have been extinguished and during my breather and morning smoke, i have decided to see if i can let go and write this little ditty.
so anyhow, what was GOD telling me this morning?? perhaps it was the day to get started early and i chose to ignore that voice. perfectly in line with the reading this morning, GOD speaks and once again i choose to ignore that voice, because i of course know better! okay point taken. something my sponsor says is that when GOD speaks, he gets a tap on the shoulder, getting harder and harder until he has to be hit upside the head with a two by four. apparently that has to be the same process for me. OUCH!
well that is changing, at least in some respects, my HOPE is that as i continue along the path of recovery, i will listen to the voice of my HIGHER POWER with a bit more diligence. so what preconceived ideas and opinions am i struggling with today? right here and right now, i do not see any really active, but i am sure that the part of me i call my disease has more than i few surprises for me as i progress through my day. so which voice do i choose to hear -- and now i know i am beginning to sound like some kind of psych patient struggling with voices, the voices, ARGHHHHHHHHH!
well like any perfectly insane person, i deal with all kinds of conflicting signals in a single day, and i do not imagine that will change for quite a while. i am getting better, but not as fast as i want to. the changes manifest in my life will continue, i will learn how to listen, and perhaps i will start to really listen to what GOD is trying to tell me, regardless of where it happens to come from.
so anyhow, what was GOD telling me this morning?? perhaps it was the day to get started early and i chose to ignore that voice. perfectly in line with the reading this morning, GOD speaks and once again i choose to ignore that voice, because i of course know better! okay point taken. something my sponsor says is that when GOD speaks, he gets a tap on the shoulder, getting harder and harder until he has to be hit upside the head with a two by four. apparently that has to be the same process for me. OUCH!
well that is changing, at least in some respects, my HOPE is that as i continue along the path of recovery, i will listen to the voice of my HIGHER POWER with a bit more diligence. so what preconceived ideas and opinions am i struggling with today? right here and right now, i do not see any really active, but i am sure that the part of me i call my disease has more than i few surprises for me as i progress through my day. so which voice do i choose to hear -- and now i know i am beginning to sound like some kind of psych patient struggling with voices, the voices, ARGHHHHHHHHH!
well like any perfectly insane person, i deal with all kinds of conflicting signals in a single day, and i do not imagine that will change for quite a while. i am getting better, but not as fast as i want to. the changes manifest in my life will continue, i will learn how to listen, and perhaps i will start to really listen to what GOD is trying to tell me, regardless of where it happens to come from.
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