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Sat, Oct 23, 2004 01:44:13 PM
manipulating my way into a manageable life
posted: Sat, Oct 23, 2004 01:44:13 PM
if only i could!
what a world, just a little lie here and a quick use of someone there and my life would be exactly as i desire.
and then i woke-up and got clean!
although i believed i had quite a bit of power when i got here, that little myth got quickly dispelled as i dealt with the damage of my unmanageable life. the biggest lie i told was to myself that somehow, if i could satisfy certain conditions i could not only return to my old life and it would be somehow more than it ever was.
what i got instead was a life far beyond my wildest dreams that is no mopre manageable than before, except today i can accept that i am not in charge and SURRENDER my life to my HIGHER POWER and let it do the work that i so clearly lack the skill set for -- namely managing and caring for my life --..
DT
what a world, just a little lie here and a quick use of someone there and my life would be exactly as i desire.
and then i woke-up and got clean!
although i believed i had quite a bit of power when i got here, that little myth got quickly dispelled as i dealt with the damage of my unmanageable life. the biggest lie i told was to myself that somehow, if i could satisfy certain conditions i could not only return to my old life and it would be somehow more than it ever was.
what i got instead was a life far beyond my wildest dreams that is no mopre manageable than before, except today i can accept that i am not in charge and SURRENDER my life to my HIGHER POWER and let it do the work that i so clearly lack the skill set for -- namely managing and caring for my life --..
DT
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☯ The Tao that can be spoken is not the eternal Tao ☯
by Lao-Tse
Translated by James Legge
Book 2
1) Therefore all in the world delight to exalt him and do not weary
of him. Because he does not strive, no one finds it possible to strive
with him.