ฮฑ i truly believe that **i can only keep what i have by giving it away.** ฯ
Posted: Fri, Jul 25, 2008 09:35:27 AM
the paradox of the Twelfth Step is evident, for in giving, i receive. in fact i had do do a bit of twelfth step work last night. here i sit, far from my home, on vacation, with no hot water and yet my phone still rings. it was a newcomer i met over the past weekend, who was struggling with dealing with the human condition. did i keep him in the rooms? i do not know, that was hardly my intention, my intent was to help a fellow addict through a tough patch, by providing a rational voice against the howl of his disease. i will see what the results are, further down the line. for me, the results are already manifest, i did not use, i do not have the desire to use, and i am choosing to do what it takes to stay in recovery. which for today is being present for my significant other’s family. so it is time to scrape off a bit of yesterday, and return to the rest of those i am sharing this slice of time with up here in the mountains.
∞ DT ∞