ฮด i was sentenced to recovery feeling very frightened and insecure ฮด
Posted: Mon, Jan 11, 2010 08:32:50 AM
i want a feeling of safety and strength, HOWEVER, for me, faith did not come overnight. FAITH took time and my effort to grow into a force in my life and my recovery. so all of a sudden, the extra time i had this morning has melted away, and i find myself running behind my self-imposed schedule, after all, i was supposed to have this done and be preparing to go run. well it is what it is, and as i sit here and see a theme developing within me, namely the celebration of FAITH in my life, i can be grateful for what i do have, a program that allows me to be more than i ever was and a connection with something beyond the mundane material world.
the comfort i get from believing in SOMETHING beyond my senses and beyond anything i can define is incredible at times. it amazes me that after all this time my rational side has come to accept that there just may be a POWER that is working in my life, keeping me clean, and prodding me along a path to a better me. each day clean, is one more example of a miracle, as before i was forced to come to recovery, getting 12 hours clean, was a chore beyond my capabilities.
anyhow i ma grateful that i took the time and effort to grow some FAITH and just for today, i will do what i can to nurture that process. it is after all, a good day to be clean and an active participant in my recovery.
the comfort i get from believing in SOMETHING beyond my senses and beyond anything i can define is incredible at times. it amazes me that after all this time my rational side has come to accept that there just may be a POWER that is working in my life, keeping me clean, and prodding me along a path to a better me. each day clean, is one more example of a miracle, as before i was forced to come to recovery, getting 12 hours clean, was a chore beyond my capabilities.
anyhow i ma grateful that i took the time and effort to grow some FAITH and just for today, i will do what i can to nurture that process. it is after all, a good day to be clean and an active participant in my recovery.
∞ DT ∞