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by sharing spiritual growth i become more spiritual. as a result, the difficult people i encounter in my daily living disappear. no not physically, that would make this world quite empty, because everyone i encounter in my day to day travails has the opportunity to be difficult. it is my perception of those people that changes and voilà they are no longer difficult. of course, the trick is learning to love without conditions, and putting myself into the shoes of others. one day at a time that is becoming possible, partly because i have the example of those who are walking this path in front of me. while i respect them and for the most part want to do what they did, so i can get what they have, there are more than enough examples of what i do not want to become. most importantly, i do not want to become so self-important that the ends justify the means when it comes to just about anything. amazingly, when i get to that spot, i am so totally ignorant that i am behaving in such a manner, that even when i am told i am doing such and such, i can rationalize those observations with a sweep of my hand and a bit of sophistry.
i am in such a quandary right now. emotionally i am supercharged with anger, and my instinct is to do everything in my power to tear someone apart, telling them in no uncertain terms how fVcked they really are. spiritually, i know i am on shaky ground, even though i know i am correct in what i am thinking, i have difficulty separating the person from the action, and i am more than a little afraid of how i may act out. after all, the last thing i want to do, is to owe this person an amend, they are just not worth it!
my task today, is to allow myself to be open to what is happening, to listen for the answer to my dilemma, and to go with the flow, being the least difficult person i can be.
before i forget:

Greg C -- 6 YEARS CLEAN! -- AND YOU DID IT ONE DAY AT A TIME!

so off to the streets for a very long run and perhaps, if i allow it the chance to clear out the garbage that is currently occupying my conscious self, one mile at a time! i will do my best to be well and available for what comes down the pike today.

∞ DT ∞