Blog entry for:
Sat, Sep 18, 2010 11:37:13 AM
Þ one of the most profound changes in my life Þ
posted: Sat, Sep 18, 2010 11:37:13 AM
is in the realm of personal relationships. those changes have been amazing, but before i go into writing about this, i need to make a decision. yes i know that decision-making is not necessarily what you all wish to hear, i am however going there.
so i was sent off to one of my clients way too early this morning due to connectivity issues on site. i got there, resolved that and discovered the server that i had set-up as a backup had lost one of its hard drives. my decision now, is to try and go back and replace the drive, install the software and wait for the piece of hardware to do the restore from tape, or to just let it go. honestly it is amazing those drives lasted for as long as they did, and it has been a good piece of insurance to have that server there and running, and it has come in handy for all sorts of little tasks to run when i need to make changes before i put them in production. i can do some other work while i am there, so as i write this out, i do believe that i will go and get that machine up and running again and sleep a little easier tonight.
there that was not so hard was it? so the reading spoke about as i build relationships i will have to deal with conflicts. equal relationships are fraught with more than one place where i disagree with another person. my current spiritual fitness, at least as i was steeling myself for another step cycle, was not one in which i handles this conflict very well. because of underlying anger and entitlement issues coming from my unmet expectations of myself and the world around me, i was unable to see the forest for all the trees as the cliche goes. recognizing my insanity in this matter has been instrumental into moving into the Step 2 assignment i am currently working on, and as i write this, i am finally getting a few clues about how to proceed.
on that note i think i will implement my previous decision and get back to the plant and get that dang server up and running. life is good today and i am in a great space, now that i have stopped waffling about how to apply myself this morning.
so i was sent off to one of my clients way too early this morning due to connectivity issues on site. i got there, resolved that and discovered the server that i had set-up as a backup had lost one of its hard drives. my decision now, is to try and go back and replace the drive, install the software and wait for the piece of hardware to do the restore from tape, or to just let it go. honestly it is amazing those drives lasted for as long as they did, and it has been a good piece of insurance to have that server there and running, and it has come in handy for all sorts of little tasks to run when i need to make changes before i put them in production. i can do some other work while i am there, so as i write this out, i do believe that i will go and get that machine up and running again and sleep a little easier tonight.
there that was not so hard was it? so the reading spoke about as i build relationships i will have to deal with conflicts. equal relationships are fraught with more than one place where i disagree with another person. my current spiritual fitness, at least as i was steeling myself for another step cycle, was not one in which i handles this conflict very well. because of underlying anger and entitlement issues coming from my unmet expectations of myself and the world around me, i was unable to see the forest for all the trees as the cliche goes. recognizing my insanity in this matter has been instrumental into moving into the Step 2 assignment i am currently working on, and as i write this, i am finally getting a few clues about how to proceed.
on that note i think i will implement my previous decision and get back to the plant and get that dang server up and running. life is good today and i am in a great space, now that i have stopped waffling about how to apply myself this morning.
∞ DT ∞
The views expressed on this page are solely the opinion of the author.
While the author is a member of a 12 Step recovery fellowship, these writings are not intended to endorse or express the published wisdom of any fellowship.
These writings are not meant to be socially or politically correct, and if you take issue with any opinions expressed, please seek the guidance of someone wiser than me.
While the author is a member of a 12 Step recovery fellowship, these writings are not intended to endorse or express the published wisdom of any fellowship.
These writings are not meant to be socially or politically correct, and if you take issue with any opinions expressed, please seek the guidance of someone wiser than me.
Another Look!
∞ on being myself ∞ 284 words ➥ Sunday, September 18, 2005 by: donnot∞ if i sacrifice my honesty and integrity to avoid conflicts or disagreements, ∞ 405 words ➥ Monday, September 18, 2006 by: donnot
α recovery is giving me relationships that are closer and … 391 words ➥ Thursday, September 18, 2008 by: donnot
¥ conflict is not only to be expected in any long-lasting relationship but … 595 words ➥ Friday, September 18, 2009 by: donnot
• i can ONLY experience the full measure of partnership • 523 words ➥ Sunday, September 18, 2011 by: donnot
: shared laughter, tears, and struggles : 577 words ➥ Tuesday, September 18, 2012 by: donnot
♥ what do i do when i find that i do not agree with ♥ 376 words ➥ Wednesday, September 18, 2013 by: donnot
∗ shared laughter, tears, and struggles ∗ 732 words ➥ Thursday, September 18, 2014 by: donnot
ƒ honest relationships ƒ 506 words ➥ Friday, September 18, 2015 by: donnot
» working on « 580 words ➥ Sunday, September 18, 2016 by: donnot
🌄 welcoming the differences, 🌆 692 words ➥ Monday, September 18, 2017 by: donnot
🐣 on being myself, 🐣 453 words ➥ Tuesday, September 18, 2018 by: donnot
🚑 the most profound 🚔 676 words ➥ Wednesday, September 18, 2019 by: donnot
🏚 honesty and integrity 🏜 543 words ➥ Friday, September 18, 2020 by: donnot
🌄 climb every 14'er 🌄 16 words ➥ Saturday, September 18, 2021 by: donnot
🎁 giving away 🤷 497 words ➥ Sunday, September 18, 2022 by: donnot
😏 living life 😒 538 words ➥ Monday, September 18, 2023 by: donnot
☯ The Tao that can be spoken is not the eternal Tao ☯
by Lao-Tse
Translated by James Legge
Book 1
3) If this transformation became to me an object of desire, I would
express the desire by the nameless simplicity.
Simplicity without a name
Is free from all external aim.
With no desire, at rest and still,
All things go right as of their will.