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i do not have to be religious to accept this idea, the point is that i open my mind to believe in something. another work week coming to a close and another bunch of deadline i need to meet today. all of that is good and my latest obsession with a new version of a computer game that i have grown to enjoy will not run on my computers, or so they tell me. in days past, that in and of itself would have driven me out to the electronics store to buy the latest and greatest, just so i could play a game. although that possibility still exists, i do believe i will not engage in that today, instead obsess about doing the work in front of me, billing for that work and getting my bills paid. perhaps after all of that i will be able to get that bright and shiny toy. all of that may come if i do what is in front of me.
which brings me to what i heard in the few brief moments i could quiet my mind this morning. IF i allow the will of a HIGHER POWER to guide me, by getting out of the way, i CAN get all my needs met and even better even some of my desires. the trick here, for me, is to remain open-minded and not locked into a state of “KNOWING.” i know that i want to be in a state of knowing, rather than a state of learning, i know that my desires are not necessarily my wants and i know that i CAN apply self-will, stubbornly refusing to accept the reality of what is going on in my life. all of that is true. i also know that there is evidence of Something that is guiding me through life. no matter what i call IT, IT is present and all i have to do is allow IT to be heard within me.
of course, the reading was about a HIGHER POWER, and i could go on about how that POWER is manifest in my life. i am feeling that this morning, the message is more for me to let go of my self-will and apply what i am feeling instead. going with that flow, i think i will hop in the shower and get moving on the tasks i see on my desktop this morning. it is a great day to be in recovery and i will do what i can to grow today, allowing myself to be guided by the POWER that keeps me clean.

∞ DT ∞