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Fri, Feb 11, 2005 05:34:51 AM
↔ a curse? a blessing! ↔
posted: Fri, Feb 11, 2005 05:34:51 AM
yes i am clean today. i am happy with who i have become, have few regrets about who i was and am confident in who i will become, nevertheless there are times i feel the weight of my disease and that it was and is the bane of my existence. after all normal people do not have to jump through all the hoops i have to, just get up out of bed and face the world. normies do have to learn or relearn all those things that i missed while growing up.
even though i feel the weight of my disease, without having come to this journey i would not have any sort of spiritual life. i would not have the depth of self-understanding nor the tools to live in the here and now. and most of all i would not have the friends and the relationships i now have in my life. this program gave me so much more than 2710 days of abstinence, it gave me the tools i neglected to pick-up during my life in active addiction and a manner of living today that is without comparison.
so although active addiction may be odious to me and seem like a burden, without it i would not have the benefits of a new way to live.
and that is the nature of my gratitude today, i am blessed for being cursed!
∞ DT ∞
even though i feel the weight of my disease, without having come to this journey i would not have any sort of spiritual life. i would not have the depth of self-understanding nor the tools to live in the here and now. and most of all i would not have the friends and the relationships i now have in my life. this program gave me so much more than 2710 days of abstinence, it gave me the tools i neglected to pick-up during my life in active addiction and a manner of living today that is without comparison.
so although active addiction may be odious to me and seem like a burden, without it i would not have the benefits of a new way to live.
and that is the nature of my gratitude today, i am blessed for being cursed!
∞ DT ∞
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While the author is a member of a 12 Step recovery fellowship, these writings are not intended to endorse or express the published wisdom of any fellowship.
These writings are not meant to be socially or politically correct, and if you take issue with any opinions expressed, please seek the guidance of someone wiser than me.
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by Lao-Tse
Translated by James Legge
Book 1
1) Gravity is the root of lightness; stillness, the ruler of movement.