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is through surrender to a the POWER that fuels my recovery. yet another HIGHER POWERED topic, and yet another day when i am feeling i am running late. the truth is i am not, as no one tells me i have to be anywhere at any certain time, and it is self-will that makes me want to be down in Broomfield by 7:30. needless to say, i more than likely will cut this short as i really, really want to get moving so i can get out of there this evening. anyhow, all of that aside, what i mostly heard when i listened this morning was that there is a way out of the messes i create. as hopeless as the situations i create may appear, IF I STAY CLEAN, there is always the chance that i can and will see the path out of the gloom and doom that surrounds me when i am in a pile of sh!t.
asking and listening for the answer, what a novel concept. i have been going on about this whole feeling my way through the THIRD STEP gig, i have been experiencing, what i have not been paying attention to, is the depth of the answers i am getting through my daily practice of STEP 11. that is so me, to be so focused on the minutia that i miss the big picture. so stepping back and looking at the BIG picture, i see myself getting what i need, the opportunity to get myself out of the mess i have created. that was all i asked for, and was asking for the past 30 days or so, and that is what i am getting. sure winning the POWER BALL would be nice, but for some odd reason, i feel more fulfilled working like a mad man instead. i know that after this first couple of weeks i will get a rhythm going, and i will be able to add back my physical workout routine as well as doing everything i want to do. however just for today, i am running behind my self-imposed schedule to it is off to the showers and into the world world once again.

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