accept life
Posted: Tue, Aug 24, 2004 04:48:21 AM
surrender my expectations???
look to GOD for guidance??
how about that?
i understand that as a person i can create an expectation without much effort. some of these come from culture, others from my position in life but most come from the selfish, self-centered bastard that i can be. i want MORE than i am currently getting, MORE money, MORE respect, MORE toys, MORE love and MORE serenity. i think that i am entitled to all of this and of course MORE. since i am entitled, i expect it NOW.
all of this is contrary to what i have been taught, not that i suffer from the disease of MORE, rather the idea that i am entitled to anything except the FREEDOM from active addiction. if i can go through my day practicing the spiritual principles as they have been given to me the voice of entitlement is diminished and i can be happy with what i have today, namely a life beyond my wildest expectations and a manner of living which brings me the gifts i need when i need them. and that brings me back to accepting my life just as it is now. i have a friend that constantly reminds me that until i accept and am happy with what i have, i will always be stuck in the the trap of wanting MORE and be unable to handle MORE when i get it.
so once again, it is back to basics, listening for GOD's will for me and doing my best to carry it out in the here and now
-- DT --
look to GOD for guidance??
how about that?
i understand that as a person i can create an expectation without much effort. some of these come from culture, others from my position in life but most come from the selfish, self-centered bastard that i can be. i want MORE than i am currently getting, MORE money, MORE respect, MORE toys, MORE love and MORE serenity. i think that i am entitled to all of this and of course MORE. since i am entitled, i expect it NOW.
all of this is contrary to what i have been taught, not that i suffer from the disease of MORE, rather the idea that i am entitled to anything except the FREEDOM from active addiction. if i can go through my day practicing the spiritual principles as they have been given to me the voice of entitlement is diminished and i can be happy with what i have today, namely a life beyond my wildest expectations and a manner of living which brings me the gifts i need when i need them. and that brings me back to accepting my life just as it is now. i have a friend that constantly reminds me that until i accept and am happy with what i have, i will always be stuck in the the trap of wanting MORE and be unable to handle MORE when i get it.
so once again, it is back to basics, listening for GOD's will for me and doing my best to carry it out in the here and now
-- DT --