¥ the Twelve Steps give me a strong dose of real values ¥
Posted: Thu, Sep 1, 2011 09:21:09 AM
the kind that help me live in harmony with myself and those around me. well, it has already been an interesting morning. i knew better than to make that customer service call, and yet, i could not help myself. man, what a major goofball i have been. now i am sitting at work finishing up what i needed to get done before i set out this morning. life is…
before i get rolling:
HMMMM
getting back to the task at hand, this whole new set of values gig is something that i have been resistant to, from the very start. before i got clean and way before i ever got recovery, i did not realize i even had a set of values, i just did what i did without much consideration for the consequences. in fact, if pressed, i would have been hard put to enumerate my values much less actually put names and descriptions to them. that is not, thankfully the case anymore.
as i stay clean and do this active recover gig, i find that the values i hold near and dear, continue to change. no it is not like i am reverting back to being totally self-entitled and master of my domain, but what i thought what was written in stone, is not. i am discovering or better put uncovering the fact that i have always had a set of values, it was just that i used away any desire to live by those values. step work has not changed those values merely altered how they are applied to my life and turned me away from the valueless life i was living, and could live again, if i choose to do so. the old chicken and the egg argument, do live a better life because i have values, or because i live a better life i now am beginning to understand what my values are and have been. not that it really matters. what matters is today i can be a part of a greater whole. i can love and be loved and i can care about others without expectations, most of the time.
anyhow, one of values is starting to kick in and i am at work and getting paid, so it is time to do some, work that is. it is, as my friend Joe has been known to say, a good day to be clean.
before i get rolling:
11 years of one day a times in a row
That is awesome, sweetie
i am so glad you are a part of my life and my recovery
HMMMM
getting back to the task at hand, this whole new set of values gig is something that i have been resistant to, from the very start. before i got clean and way before i ever got recovery, i did not realize i even had a set of values, i just did what i did without much consideration for the consequences. in fact, if pressed, i would have been hard put to enumerate my values much less actually put names and descriptions to them. that is not, thankfully the case anymore.
as i stay clean and do this active recover gig, i find that the values i hold near and dear, continue to change. no it is not like i am reverting back to being totally self-entitled and master of my domain, but what i thought what was written in stone, is not. i am discovering or better put uncovering the fact that i have always had a set of values, it was just that i used away any desire to live by those values. step work has not changed those values merely altered how they are applied to my life and turned me away from the valueless life i was living, and could live again, if i choose to do so. the old chicken and the egg argument, do live a better life because i have values, or because i live a better life i now am beginning to understand what my values are and have been. not that it really matters. what matters is today i can be a part of a greater whole. i can love and be loved and i can care about others without expectations, most of the time.
anyhow, one of values is starting to kick in and i am at work and getting paid, so it is time to do some, work that is. it is, as my friend Joe has been known to say, a good day to be clean.
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