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Mon, Jan 9, 2012 07:50:36 AM
ƒ i treat my sponsor with respect ƒ
posted: Mon, Jan 9, 2012 07:50:36 AM
he is not trash can designed for me to dump my garbage in, although i often forget that. what a weekend, i had to grow up a bit and i have to clean-up a small mess that i discovered as part of my daily inventory as a result. i really guess this is a learning process, as much as i think i have some of this stuff down pat. NO EXCUSES!
thinking about my sponse, a realize i have not called him in several weeks. i can say i was way too busy, and that would not be an exaggeration. i could say, there are no big deals going on, and that is also the truth. what i see in those statements are rationalizations, i tell myself to assuage my guilty conscience. i owe him a call, just to see how he is doing!
whenever i catch myself, trying to rationalize and justify, i need to step back and be concerned about what is going on. in this case, self-centered, quickly jumps to mind. i have not NEEDED to call my sponsor, so i have not. which sounds so much like my brand new sponsee, who once again is staring his clean time over again. speaking to him the other day, i heard the exact same words, and while i am not in the aftermath of my first use again, there really is not much difference. man what a slap in the face!
as i go through today, i will be reminded that the man who i call my sponsor does deserve a call and my time, and when i do my 10th step tonight, hopefully that task will not still be left undone. it is a good day to be cl,ean and it is a good day to do whatever it atkes to recover,
thinking about my sponse, a realize i have not called him in several weeks. i can say i was way too busy, and that would not be an exaggeration. i could say, there are no big deals going on, and that is also the truth. what i see in those statements are rationalizations, i tell myself to assuage my guilty conscience. i owe him a call, just to see how he is doing!
whenever i catch myself, trying to rationalize and justify, i need to step back and be concerned about what is going on. in this case, self-centered, quickly jumps to mind. i have not NEEDED to call my sponsor, so i have not. which sounds so much like my brand new sponsee, who once again is staring his clean time over again. speaking to him the other day, i heard the exact same words, and while i am not in the aftermath of my first use again, there really is not much difference. man what a slap in the face!
as i go through today, i will be reminded that the man who i call my sponsor does deserve a call and my time, and when i do my 10th step tonight, hopefully that task will not still be left undone. it is a good day to be cl,ean and it is a good day to do whatever it atkes to recover,
∞ DT ∞
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While the author is a member of a 12 Step recovery fellowship, these writings are not intended to endorse or express the published wisdom of any fellowship.
These writings are not meant to be socially or politically correct, and if you take issue with any opinions expressed, please seek the guidance of someone wiser than me.
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☯ The Tao that can be spoken is not the eternal Tao ☯
by Lao-Tse
Translated by James Legge
Book 1
2) We should blunt our sharp points, and unravel the complications
of things; we should attemper our brightness, and bring ourselves
into agreement with the obscurity of others. How pure and still the
Tao is, as if it would ever so continue!