Blog entry for:

Tue, Apr 23, 2013 10:02:12 AM


≥ all i EVER have to know about a HIGHER POWER, ≥
posted: Tue, Apr 23, 2013 10:02:12 AM

 

is that IT is the POWER that keeps me clean. alright, i admit it. i am pretty adamant about this subject. being one of those who was against everything that even had the whiff of organized religion to it, created quite a tizzy in my early recovery and still makes a wave or three in the rooms today. i am all about finding my own way here, and it may be detrimental to the men i sponsor, that they, too, find there own way here as well. i would argue, that it is not, but that to[pic is for another day. this morning i am grateful that i found a way to incorporate a belief in a POWER that fuels my recovery, into my ever so fVcking rational mind. that ratiionality, as well as my total resistance to the whole religion thing, did not end up preventing me from building an active recovery life, after all, i was one those who came in on a court card and ended up staying. in fact, i would argue, that all my resistance and my final acceptance, has made my recovery stronger and healthier. as i sit here, watching the sun rise over the ridge, i understand that the gifts i have today, come from a stroong and active recovery program, and that program is spiritually based on the principal that the will of the POWER that fuels my recovery, is for me to stay clean today. Speaking ow which:

Carlos, my friend and sponsor
congrats on 30 years clean!

yes, Virginia, there is long term clean time and even recovery, in the fellowship that is my home.
where was i? oh yes, finding a way to incorporate the idea of a HIGHER POWER in the mind of a hardened super-rational agnostic. the idea here is not that i cannot be done, it si that as i grow the need for a structure of the concept, a mental construct of sorts to hang my beliefs on, diminishes over time. in fact, the longer i stay clean, the more vague my concept becomes. as i grow, i am becoming more dependent on that POWER and less certain of what that POWER looks like, and for me that is a good thing, as i no longer have a concept to lend to anyone, especially those men who choose to call me their sponsor. in fact, i will give my concept away, and if it works for them, even better.
the time has come, to start to get out and about into this beautiful day in the desert. a few puffs on a cigar, a few cups of coffee and it is off to see some more of this beautiful place that the POWER that fuels my recovery, has provided me the opportunity to be at, here and now. the reading says it all for me, all i HAVE to know, is that there is a POWER that fuels my recovery, if i ALLOW IT to do ITS job.
so be well and stay warm, for me, another day of fun in the sun, in the paradise in the desert, because today, anywhere can be paradise for me, all i have to do is allow myself to be in the her and now and awake for thee lessons i need to learn.

∞ DT ∞

 

djtConsulting Brand
The views expressed on this page are solely the opinion of the author.
While the author is a member of a 12 Step recovery fellowship, these writings are not intended to endorse or express the published wisdom of any fellowship.
These writings are not meant to be socially or politically correct, and if you take issue with any opinions expressed, please seek the guidance of someone wiser than me.

Another Look!

α the POWER that helps keep me clean α 470 words ➥ Sunday, April 23, 2006 by: donnot
α i may doubt the existence of any sort of POWER greater than myself. ω 562 words ➥ Monday, April 23, 2007 by: donnot
∞ if i am not comfortable with what i learned when i was growing up, i can try a different approach to my spirituality. ∞ 466 words ➥ Wednesday, April 23, 2008 by: donnot
α i do not have to understand everything all at once or find the answers to all my questions right away ω 551 words ➥ Thursday, April 23, 2009 by: donnot
α many may enter recovery with a working understanding of a Higher Power Ω 494 words ➥ Friday, April 23, 2010 by: donnot
〈 i have come to understand God to be simply THE force keeps me clean 〉 628 words ➥ Saturday, April 23, 2011 by: donnot
¢ i DO remember very uncomfortable experiences with religion ¢ 299 words ➥ Monday, April 23, 2012 by: donnot
‡ starting over in recovery means ‡ 634 words ➥ Wednesday, April 23, 2014 by: donnot
» for me, however, « 650 words ➥ Thursday, April 23, 2015 by: donnot
☯ a GOD ☸ 823 words ➥ Saturday, April 23, 2016 by: donnot
😵 i need not 😶 674 words ➥ Sunday, April 23, 2017 by: donnot
🍑 my belief, 🍋 430 words ➥ Monday, April 23, 2018 by: donnot
🗱 the POWER that 🗜 500 words ➥ Tuesday, April 23, 2019 by: donnot
“ the **GOD** stuff ” 465 words ➥ Thursday, April 23, 2020 by: donnot
👶 understanding 👶 448 words ➥ Friday, April 23, 2021 by: donnot
🙏 a POWER that 🙏 378 words ➥ Saturday, April 23, 2022 by: donnot
💯 the value 👌 453 words ➥ Sunday, April 23, 2023 by: donnot
Spacer Image

☯ The Tao that can be spoken is not the eternal Tao ☯

THE TAO TEH KING, OR THE TAO AND ITS CHARACTERISTICS
by Lao-Tse
Translated by James Legge

Book 1

1) There was something undefined and complete, coming into existence
before Heaven and Earth. How still it was and formless, standing alone,
and undergoing no change, reaching everywhere and in no danger (of
being exhausted)! It may be regarded as the Mother of all things.