โ but freedom from isolation has its price: โ
Posted: Sat, Sep 7, 2013 08:28:20 AM
the more i interact with people, the more often i may find someone stepping on my toes.
as i prepare to take off for a week off the grid, it is a good reminder to me, that i need not carry any resentments. ironically, someone i once sponsored, contacted a friend and caused me to look him off, and send him off a quick note, telling him that if my actions were misinterpreted, that i had made a mistake. there was a time,when i was pissed off with that person, but as i walk further and further away from the whole situation, i feel less and less angry and see that i too, was carrying a resentment, that i needed to release. they did, whatever it was that they did, because they felt that it was something that need to be done. i did what i did, because i KNEW that i was unwilling to play the game. my part? well i was more than a little abrupt with the party in the middle, because i did not want or need to have someone in the middle. it is what it is, and today i am grateful that when the time comes, i can still own where i was wrong.
the reading reminds me that as i am traveling today, things may not quite go as i plan them to go and i NEED to let go of my expectations of getting everything i want, as this day through airports, third party transport and resort check-ins happen. having any expectations today, will certainly sour what will already be a stressful experience and do i really want to start my vacation, seething and steaming, when it all can be avoided? after all, our literature clearly states that expectations are just premeditated resentments.
so as i run around, trying my best to remember what i may have forgotten, checking to see how far my US dollars will go and just trying to slide into the airport and get the puck out of dodge, i see a whole lot of nothing going on inside of my head. at least when it come to this topic. so instead of adding any fluff, i will just say: Adiós amigos, nos vemos en siete dรญas.
as i prepare to take off for a week off the grid, it is a good reminder to me, that i need not carry any resentments. ironically, someone i once sponsored, contacted a friend and caused me to look him off, and send him off a quick note, telling him that if my actions were misinterpreted, that i had made a mistake. there was a time,when i was pissed off with that person, but as i walk further and further away from the whole situation, i feel less and less angry and see that i too, was carrying a resentment, that i needed to release. they did, whatever it was that they did, because they felt that it was something that need to be done. i did what i did, because i KNEW that i was unwilling to play the game. my part? well i was more than a little abrupt with the party in the middle, because i did not want or need to have someone in the middle. it is what it is, and today i am grateful that when the time comes, i can still own where i was wrong.
the reading reminds me that as i am traveling today, things may not quite go as i plan them to go and i NEED to let go of my expectations of getting everything i want, as this day through airports, third party transport and resort check-ins happen. having any expectations today, will certainly sour what will already be a stressful experience and do i really want to start my vacation, seething and steaming, when it all can be avoided? after all, our literature clearly states that expectations are just premeditated resentments.
so as i run around, trying my best to remember what i may have forgotten, checking to see how far my US dollars will go and just trying to slide into the airport and get the puck out of dodge, i see a whole lot of nothing going on inside of my head. at least when it come to this topic. so instead of adding any fluff, i will just say: Adiós amigos, nos vemos en siete dรญas.
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