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Fri, Jul 23, 2004 05:51:25 AM
living in self-will
posted: Fri, Jul 23, 2004 05:51:25 AM
an excellent reading this morning!
and although it certainly applied to me, responding to it is difficult this morning.
maybe that is a symptom of self-will, -- my desire to have to add my "pearls of wisdom" --
anyhow since i am at a loss for words specific to the reading today, i guess i just have to share what is on my mind at this moment and see where it goes. :)
my big concern today is how to respond to an addict's e-mail about a situation that i am far removed from. at first glance he seems he is genuinely concerned for another addict and the group that he is a part of. his sponsor is using prescription medication because they believe their higher power told them it was "OK."
i have had to take prescription medication of the narcotic type during my recovery, but it was always prescribed to me, by my doctor, after letting my doctor know that i suffer from the disease of addiction. these times have been very limited and i always hated the way the meds made me feel nevertheless i did not change my clean date or start over. now that i think about it, i do not believe that i was self-prescribing or taking them out of self-will even though i never specifically sought guidance from my HIGHER POWER about this issue, i just took it on FAITH that GOD was working through the medical profession.
i am currently at a loss on how to respond other than to let him know that i will be available to talk later today and that i currently (in this moment) have no suggestion for him.
he also expressed some serious concerns about some other issues that are near to my heart and i wanted to tell him to stand-up and assert himself, but once again i waited to provide any specific suggestions.
-- HMMMMMMMMMM --
maybe i am responding to this morning's reading after all. i chose not to practice my will and wait to discover what exactly i should do.
anyhow, i have until this afternoon to look for and recognize what is GOD's will for me in this situation and to find the courage to act on that will exactly as revealed to me.
so enough of my seemingly random rambling and on with my day.
-- DT --
and although it certainly applied to me, responding to it is difficult this morning.
maybe that is a symptom of self-will, -- my desire to have to add my "pearls of wisdom" --
anyhow since i am at a loss for words specific to the reading today, i guess i just have to share what is on my mind at this moment and see where it goes. :)
my big concern today is how to respond to an addict's e-mail about a situation that i am far removed from. at first glance he seems he is genuinely concerned for another addict and the group that he is a part of. his sponsor is using prescription medication because they believe their higher power told them it was "OK."
i have had to take prescription medication of the narcotic type during my recovery, but it was always prescribed to me, by my doctor, after letting my doctor know that i suffer from the disease of addiction. these times have been very limited and i always hated the way the meds made me feel nevertheless i did not change my clean date or start over. now that i think about it, i do not believe that i was self-prescribing or taking them out of self-will even though i never specifically sought guidance from my HIGHER POWER about this issue, i just took it on FAITH that GOD was working through the medical profession.
i am currently at a loss on how to respond other than to let him know that i will be available to talk later today and that i currently (in this moment) have no suggestion for him.
he also expressed some serious concerns about some other issues that are near to my heart and i wanted to tell him to stand-up and assert himself, but once again i waited to provide any specific suggestions.
-- HMMMMMMMMMM --
maybe i am responding to this morning's reading after all. i chose not to practice my will and wait to discover what exactly i should do.
anyhow, i have until this afternoon to look for and recognize what is GOD's will for me in this situation and to find the courage to act on that will exactly as revealed to me.
so enough of my seemingly random rambling and on with my day.
-- DT --
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☯ The Tao that can be spoken is not the eternal Tao ☯
by Lao-Tse
Translated by James Legge
Book 1
1) He who knows other men is discerning; he who knows himself is intelligent.
He who overcomes others is strong; he who overcomes himself is mighty.
He who is satisfied with his lot is rich; he who goes on acting with
energy has a (firm) will.