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who i am, is certainly a **tricky** proposition. as the election results trickle in and i hear the screams of anguish from one side about a process they seemingly do not understand, i feel a sense of moral superiority. i know that this election has divided the populace and in my case i have “stepped” from my family members, who choose not to think for themselves. i may not enjoy the uncertainty of how things will turn out, but i really find it incredulous that some of my family members, live in an echo chamber of conspiracy theories and accepting the word of a single person as the “truth.” i can say i voted the way i did, not because of what others are saying is “free stuff,” but because i was less than pleased with the direction the current administration is taking the country and i used what little power i have, to vote for a change. i am not a “far-left, Marxist, socialist,” and no matter how hard the other side tries to spray me with their version of Kool-Ade, i do not regret how i voted, even though on many of the local issues, i was on the wrong side. when all is finally said and done, i will accept the results and move on. sure, it might be easier if they end up to my liking, but o have FAITH in the system and as the days roll by, i see that FAITH is being rewarded by the hard-working citizens of this country, who are working hard to finish the task of counting the vote. i do not tie my identity to any political movement or party, as i have far too much self-respect to rely on them to tell me what to believe.
here is where i might apologize for diverting into a political statement. in a sense, i am far too healthy this morning to do so. if true humility is knowing who i am, my thoughts on the “topic du jour” are not only valid, but highly relevant. the distance i have chosen form certain members of my family, was a healthy decision, for me anyhow. their opinions are important and i tend to believe that they are honoring their values, no matter how warped and misinformed they seem to be. as i grow closer to my parents, i see them struggling to find balance in their lives as they flail about to make sense of 2020. i may not be able to makes sense of these crazy plague days, but i can come to a sense of who i am and allow myself the freedom to associate with those who choose to believe differently than i do, but do not force their opinions and myths down my throat and leave the rest behind.
i also know that the relief i get from being out on these brisk November mornings, is part and parcel of why i can be a bit more balanced and secure in who i am becoming. i do not need to force anyone to see things my way, at least not today. i do not need to interpret the events of the world through the lenses of conspiracies and cabals. what i need to do this morning, is get a few miles in and get back to work. work may be odious these days, but like everything else, this too shall pass.

∞ DT ∞