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of my day-to-day life, is still a task i have a huge part in. yes, i know that the THIRD STEP speaks of surrendering ALL of my life into the care of a HIGHER POWER, but seriously, for me that is an ideal i will never reach. there is so much that goes on in my day, that i have the ability to take care of, why would i walk away from that responsibility. in fact this whole notion of surrendering the management of my day-to-day life to my HIGHER POWER, feels more like living by default, rather than living a life with purpose, on purpose. of course, as i contemplate that notion, i have a whole lot more to consider in this day.
even though i won my game this week, i still fell one more place in the standings and i have a HUGE hill to climb to get into the playoffs, this season. of course, going back to the topic at hand, i could just let go and allow the POWER that fuels my recovery to take care of my Fantasy Football team and maybe that is the direction i want to go in, pray for guidance and accept what i “hear” as divine wisdom. sounds more than a bit ridiculous to me, BUT as i moved further and further away from making the play-offs, i could chalk it all up to letting go and accept that maybe, being a Fantasy Football winner was not in the cards for me. of course, the opposite result may occur, which would send a strong message to me that maybe the POWER that fuels my recovery is certainly a better l=layer than i am and needs to be consulted before i make any moves. it just goes downhill from here.
what i actually heard this morning, after throwing away the chaff, was how can i tell someone that has been basically absent from my life for years on end, that their approval and involvement in my life is no longer desired or required. i am not a very subtle person and every time i trip across how to say this, it comes out as brutally honest and with very sharp edges. in theory, setting this boundary, should be easy and yet i find myself hesitating to do so and considering passive-aggressive means to set and enforce it. this is certainly a task i need to turn over into the care of the POWER that fuels my recovery, as i am stymied by it and honestly feel that i could mess things up if i attempt to take care of this myself.
anyhow, it is time to get my running togs on and hit the streets. life in my world is not too terrible these days and if i know that i NEED to ask for another set of eyes on the bug that has me scratching my head at work. oh yeah, i also need to take advantage of the fact i am in the number 2 slot for waiver picks this week and grab that player who will propel me to the play-offs, just for today 😜.

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