ฮฑ a clean addict is, indeed, a vision of hope ฯ
Posted: Mon, Jun 12, 2006 07:34:48 AM
and what a responsibility to live up to. DAMMIT! now i get to be a vision of hope for some newcomer, viewing me through rose-colored glasses. well at least the reading did not say i have to be anymore than i am, min fact it specifically said to show those newcomers who i am and what i am struggling with today, even though they may be unable to understand it right now.
truthfully, i never signed up for a whole bunch of stuff that comes with doing this recovery gig for a few days and one of the things i really do not like is being forced on to some sort of pedestal. but i also do not believe that i should behave in a manner that is untrue to my current nature. so what happens? i act as who i am today and if that appears to be spiritual or fucked-up to someone else, it is not my concern. all i can do is show those in the rooms that yes i can practice recovery, remain abstinent and find a new way to live -- and most of all BE as HOPEFUL as i can about what will come if i continue to trod this path!
more than enough for today!
truthfully, i never signed up for a whole bunch of stuff that comes with doing this recovery gig for a few days and one of the things i really do not like is being forced on to some sort of pedestal. but i also do not believe that i should behave in a manner that is untrue to my current nature. so what happens? i act as who i am today and if that appears to be spiritual or fucked-up to someone else, it is not my concern. all i can do is show those in the rooms that yes i can practice recovery, remain abstinent and find a new way to live -- and most of all BE as HOPEFUL as i can about what will come if i continue to trod this path!
more than enough for today!
∞ DT ∞