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Tue, Feb 27, 2007 11:34:46 AM
∞ but if i look at myself realistically, i will probably realize ∞
posted: Tue, Feb 27, 2007 11:34:46 AM
that i have been doing better than i have been feeling.
and today i am feeling quite rushed and stressed. and to even begin to consider whether i have pure motives or not is the least of my concerns. it is a good thing that at this point in my day, i get a chance to ponder what is going on with me today. yes i have tons of work to accomplish and yes i do not know how i will get it done, but then again i never know how i am going to get anything done anyhow. so back to the grind and see what i can accomplish.
Postscript:
well after quite a day, i am feeling a little less overwhelmed. i still am working, but i got a bunch accomplished and i am ready to quit for the day.
about motives however, i would love a meditation that said if i am not sure ALL of motives are not pure to roll over and go back to sleep. i know in reality that would mean i did not get a whole lot done, and i would probably lose everything that provides this quite comfortable life that has developed over the course of my recovery, but it would be what it would be.
no i am quite comfortable accepting that today i am not a spiritual giant, and that it is not probable that i will ever be a spiritual giant. i like who i am today, the mixed up neurotic addict in recovery, and i am pleased that this is a program of progress not perfection. life is good today and i am getting better and that is what the point of this is after all!
and today i am feeling quite rushed and stressed. and to even begin to consider whether i have pure motives or not is the least of my concerns. it is a good thing that at this point in my day, i get a chance to ponder what is going on with me today. yes i have tons of work to accomplish and yes i do not know how i will get it done, but then again i never know how i am going to get anything done anyhow. so back to the grind and see what i can accomplish.
Postscript:
well after quite a day, i am feeling a little less overwhelmed. i still am working, but i got a bunch accomplished and i am ready to quit for the day.
about motives however, i would love a meditation that said if i am not sure ALL of motives are not pure to roll over and go back to sleep. i know in reality that would mean i did not get a whole lot done, and i would probably lose everything that provides this quite comfortable life that has developed over the course of my recovery, but it would be what it would be.
no i am quite comfortable accepting that today i am not a spiritual giant, and that it is not probable that i will ever be a spiritual giant. i like who i am today, the mixed up neurotic addict in recovery, and i am pleased that this is a program of progress not perfection. life is good today and i am getting better and that is what the point of this is after all!
∞ DT ∞
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While the author is a member of a 12 Step recovery fellowship, these writings are not intended to endorse or express the published wisdom of any fellowship.
These writings are not meant to be socially or politically correct, and if you take issue with any opinions expressed, please seek the guidance of someone wiser than me.
Another Look!
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☯ The Tao that can be spoken is not the eternal Tao ☯
by Lao-Tse
Translated by James Legge
Book 2
3) He who gets as his own all under heaven does so by giving himself
no trouble (with that end). If one take trouble (with that end), he
is not equal to getting as his own all under heaven.