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Thu, Mar 29, 2007 06:29:17 AM


α when my values change, my life changes, too. Ω
posted: Thu, Mar 29, 2007 06:29:17 AM

 

guided by an inner knowledge given to me by a HIGHER POWER, i want to live out my newfound values.
no matter what i discover them to be. what i really like about this reading this morning is the comparison of behavior based on the spiritual principle of honesty. the example of being ‘cash register honesty,’ was one i could grasp easily in early recovery and still rings true to this day. for me it is one of the best examples of how my life has changed. although i could regale you of tales of woe and misery from my life in active addiction, suffice it to say that any kind of honesty was not part of my repertoire when i was using. nor was honesty on of the values i ascribed to in early recovery. yes the cash register example came out in the wash very quickly as i discovered that i had more than enough money for what i wanted after i stopped using. so it was a matter of being practical rather than being spiritual. the last thing i wanted was new charges for shoplifting piled on the charges i already was facing the consequences for. so fear of greater involvement of the judicial system in my life, created a whole new set of values that i grudgingly lived by. since the judicial system was my HIGHER POWER back in those days, this reading does apply, their will for me was for me to stop using and stay out of legal trouble, and i quickly internalized that will, once i got desperate enough to actually want some recovery.
it is quite a leap from that higher power and its will for me, to the HIGHER POWER whose will i listen for today. across the span of days that comprises my recovery, those early lessons in listening for and internalizing the will of a POWER GREATER THAN I has made this process a whole lot easier. by the time i was cut loose from the judicial reins, i was actually in a place where i could make a decision whether or not to accept the will of my HIGHER POWER or return to a life of self-will and fighting the will of GOD. my decision back then was to surrender to the fact that i was an addict, and do whatever it took to stay clean no matter what. accepting that value as my own true will set the stage for me to continue to recover to this day. i can accept a whole lot more now than i could ever accept way back when and i am coming to understand that all along, my own true will for me has been GOD’s will for me.
so off to the races into the surprise spring snow and into yet another day of learning what my true will is and what self-will is, quits a task but one i am up for today.

∞ DT ∞

 

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Another Look!

↔ my true will ↔ 159 words ➥ Tuesday, March 29, 2005 by: donnot
↔ changing values, my changing life ↔ 408 words ➥ Wednesday, March 29, 2006 by: donnot
∞ what worked for me when i used frequently does not work long in recovery. ∞ 429 words ➥ Saturday, March 29, 2008 by: donnot
ω it is human nature to want something for nothing. i tend to think that, if no one knows … 408 words ➥ Sunday, March 29, 2009 by: donnot
∼ in the past, i took advantage of others and of the situation with little regard of who i was hurting ∼ 504 words ➥ Monday, March 29, 2010 by: donnot
⇑ the will of my HIGHER POWER for me consists of the very things i most value ⇑ 384 words ➥ Tuesday, March 29, 2011 by: donnot
— i am internalizing the will of the POWER that fuels my recovery — 258 words ➥ Thursday, March 29, 2012 by: donnot
⇒ if no one knows, one small deception will not make any difference ⇐ 700 words ➥ Friday, March 29, 2013 by: donnot
∴ in the past, i victimized others. ∴ 614 words ➥ Saturday, March 29, 2014 by: donnot
≡ as the will of the POWER that fuels my recovery ≡ 706 words ➥ Sunday, March 29, 2015 by: donnot
⦕ my own true will ⦖ 574 words ➥ Tuesday, March 29, 2016 by: donnot
❄ beginning to develop ❅ 783 words ➥ Wednesday, March 29, 2017 by: donnot
🤑 getting something 🤑 735 words ➥ Thursday, March 29, 2018 by: donnot
🎡 someone does know 🎢 458 words ➥ Friday, March 29, 2019 by: donnot
👹 if no one knows ... 👿 428 words ➥ Sunday, March 29, 2020 by: donnot
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😇 living out 😉 387 words ➥ Tuesday, March 29, 2022 by: donnot
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☯ The Tao that can be spoken is not the eternal Tao ☯

THE TAO TEH KING, OR THE TAO AND ITS CHARACTERISTICS
by Lao-Tse
Translated by James Legge

Book 1

2) I do not know its name, and I give it the designation of the Tao
(the Way or Course). Making an effort (further) to give it a name
I call it The Great.