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Fri, Jun 1, 2007 02:18:22 PM
δ after some time, i find that more than my mind has arrived in the meeting rooms. δ
posted: Fri, Jun 1, 2007 02:18:22 PM
more importantly, my heart has arrived, too. after that happens, the miracles really begin.
yes i was not very willing to be in recovery back in the day, in fact, if i had any choices that did not include recovery or prison, i would probably not be writing this right now. so my body was all that arrived in the rooms, my mind was nowhere near ready to accept or even listen in those days. i was sure that i was not an addict, and that if only everyone left me alone, i would be just fine. today, right now i am grateful that i was one of the lucky ones, whose mind arrived shortly after my body did. i was desperate to avoid prison, and the path of recovery seemed the only way to maintain my physical freedom. what i got was freedom from active addiction and the justice system out of my life, and the chance to fulfill some lost dreams and more than i can list right here and now.
i am happy to be one those who are fortunate to get this whole recovery gig, and i needed it long before i was ready to accept it. yes meetings may seem trite and irrelevant to my current life BUT it is at meetings that i get to hear the information i may NEED to thrive yet another day. life is like that for me. i do not always get what i think i want, but i get what i need and today i am getting the things i need to become more than i ever was.
yes i was not very willing to be in recovery back in the day, in fact, if i had any choices that did not include recovery or prison, i would probably not be writing this right now. so my body was all that arrived in the rooms, my mind was nowhere near ready to accept or even listen in those days. i was sure that i was not an addict, and that if only everyone left me alone, i would be just fine. today, right now i am grateful that i was one of the lucky ones, whose mind arrived shortly after my body did. i was desperate to avoid prison, and the path of recovery seemed the only way to maintain my physical freedom. what i got was freedom from active addiction and the justice system out of my life, and the chance to fulfill some lost dreams and more than i can list right here and now.
i am happy to be one those who are fortunate to get this whole recovery gig, and i needed it long before i was ready to accept it. yes meetings may seem trite and irrelevant to my current life BUT it is at meetings that i get to hear the information i may NEED to thrive yet another day. life is like that for me. i do not always get what i think i want, but i get what i need and today i am getting the things i need to become more than i ever was.
∞ DT ∞
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While the author is a member of a 12 Step recovery fellowship, these writings are not intended to endorse or express the published wisdom of any fellowship.
These writings are not meant to be socially or politically correct, and if you take issue with any opinions expressed, please seek the guidance of someone wiser than me.
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☯ The Tao that can be spoken is not the eternal Tao ☯
by Lao-Tse
Translated by James Legge
Book 2
1) In a little state with a small population, I would so order it,
that, though there were individuals with the abilities of ten or a
hundred men, there should be no employment of them; I would make the
people, while looking on death as a grievous thing, yet not remove
elsewhere (to avoid it).