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it means i practice honesty, humility, compassion, tolerance, and patience with everyone, whether i like them or not.
of course this comes the day after i started to clean up my latest personality before principles gaffe. as one of the guiding clichés of the whole recovery gig; it is the one i most frequently, conveniently, forget when dealing with the world around me. so shoot me! well not really, i do enough of that myself. oops had to run and do one more task in cleaning up, sorry about that, although it was invisible to you all.
so back to the task at hand -- why is this such a difficult standard to live up to for me. well i could speak the psycho-babble about how i feel the need to build myself up at the expense of others, and while that is quite true, it is just another excuse. for me, there is no excuse for this behavior. it is just a part of my being, that may or may not be removed across the course of my life. before i fall once again into the trap of false humility, i do need to acknowledge that i do this less than i used to, so there is some hope for me after all. that hope you may ask? well i see myself closer to real-time after i once again fall into the trap of acting against this ideal. i also am more willing to go back and admit where i was wrong and repair the damage i have done. and quite honestly, if this standard was applied to all my behaviors i would almost qualify as a saint or something. nowhere does the program, the literature, or those who have gone before said that i would somehow be transformed into a saint. the HOPE of this whole gig is that i will become more saintlike and less self-absorbed, self-centered and self-entitled. and that is evident in my life toady. the evidence is all around me, that i can be better than i was yesterday, if allow the program to really work in my life. so off to practice a few principles and to see if i can put personalities behind me.

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