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curiosity, is not a topic i ever thought i might run across in my source material. it, however, the topic of today, as i have agreed to do, i will run with it. agreed with whom, one might ask, and that is a fair question. i made an agreement with myself, to keep this going until i built up a corpus of writings that would overwhelm my fans and catapult me into fame and fortune. it took a minute, but i finally saw that fame, fortune and overwhelming the internet with my pithy comments on the state of my recovery and my view of the world, was not in the cards. even after that realization hit home., i realized that i had given myself a forum to express who i was and what i was about, without having to worry who saw what i wrote and what they thought about it. i may not be anonymous, but most of those who peruse these exercises on any sort of basis, certainly are. if i get curious about who is reading these little missives from my mind, i can always scrape their IP addresses from my web logs and see where they are from. that curiosity sailed away a long time ago, and today, i write these for myself and anyone who happens to find them of interest.
after that little bit of a dive down a rabbit hole, what i “heard” this morning as i sat, was a certain sense of well-being and the notion that everything was going to be alright. i asked about my future at my job yesterday and my boss had yet to consider whether or not i would be working there on Jan 2, 2024. i hated asking the question as i have been really messing up lately and have a bit of fear around my job security. my plan, is to be diligent and detail-oriented in my work, avoid shortcuts and spend more of my time, tied to my computer and less of my time on Twitter, Fantasy Football or other diversions from what i am getting paid to do. i can see that without my hour workout i am already more productive, but that is not going away, when i can finally resume my fitness training routine at a level that will allow me to summit of Mt Kilimanjaro. more will certainly be revealed this afternoon at physical therapy.
i am not all that curious, however, about what may be driving that sense of well-being today, as this is one gift horse i choose not to look in its mouth. i have a bit of FAITH in the POWER that fuels my recovery and although i do not believe i am granted “blessings” or “gifts” from that POWER, i am quite certain that i have opportunities on a daily basis, to get some of what i may desire and certainly all that i need. where once i was curious about the what and how of the POWER that fuels my recovery, today i just accept IT is and move along. speaking of which, moving along that is, i think it is time to post this and get some steps in, today i am going for a mile once again and allowing my=self the freedom to cut it short, if i need to. it is a good day to recover, physically as well as spiritually and i am going to attempt to be an active participant in both.

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