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Tue, Nov 23, 2004 06:20:26 AM
surrendering to the will of a HIGHER POWER
posted: Tue, Nov 23, 2004 06:20:26 AM
okay, i am work less that 60 minutes and i am already ticked off about not being in control, not very accepting about who's will i am supposed to be in.
so now i must close my eyes, take a couple of deep breaths and start my work day over again by surrendering control to where it truly belongs and that is not in my hands.
ahhhhhhhhhhh much better
i can now accept the gift of serenity that comes from this surrender.
well almost, these days at work i almost always find myself frustrated and ready to lash out on the first person that comes in asking for something out of the ordinary or have some concern that they feel they need to address with me. nothing has changed in my workplace since i started here, except now i know a few more things and have a few more things to do. none of this changes the fact that i do not want to be disturbed while working on a project, and that is my part. although i have set a boundary, i constantly let my fellow team mates cross it and then i end up pissed off and resentful instead of accepting and serene. my perceptions of their failings is not the issue here, it is my expectations and perceived needs that cause my behaviors and feelings.
so just for today i think i will do my best to let go and see what happens!
-- DT --
so now i must close my eyes, take a couple of deep breaths and start my work day over again by surrendering control to where it truly belongs and that is not in my hands.
ahhhhhhhhhhh much better
i can now accept the gift of serenity that comes from this surrender.
well almost, these days at work i almost always find myself frustrated and ready to lash out on the first person that comes in asking for something out of the ordinary or have some concern that they feel they need to address with me. nothing has changed in my workplace since i started here, except now i know a few more things and have a few more things to do. none of this changes the fact that i do not want to be disturbed while working on a project, and that is my part. although i have set a boundary, i constantly let my fellow team mates cross it and then i end up pissed off and resentful instead of accepting and serene. my perceptions of their failings is not the issue here, it is my expectations and perceived needs that cause my behaviors and feelings.
so just for today i think i will do my best to let go and see what happens!
-- DT --
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☯ The Tao that can be spoken is not the eternal Tao ☯
by Lao-Tse
Translated by James Legge
Book 2
2) When the mother is found, we know what her children should be.
When one knows that he is his mother's child, and proceeds to guard
(the qualities of) the mother that belong to him, to the end of his
life he will be free from all peril.