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...divorce, death, serious illness, the loss of a job—will throw me, but i survive them. i have learned from experience that i must reach out to a Higher Power and others for the tools to get through these clean. the little things, however are an entirely different kettle of fish and why that may be is still a mystery to me.
part of it mat be, because i am still hanging on to the delusion that i have some power there, or that a HIGHER POWER odes not have time to help me deal with the minor distractions that fill daily living, or that i will look foolish or embarrassed if i share about my struggle in these minor matters. as a result of any combination of these reasons or ones i have not even dreamed of, i end-up trying to deal with this stuff on my own. not that i believe that i NEED to share about each and every frustrating situation i encounter across the course of my day, but a pause and a prayer is certainly a good start when i start to feel my frustration levels rise.
i guess what i am taking away from the reading this morning, is that it is up to me, whether i handle life or life handles me. yes, i can rail against the injustice of it all, after all doesn’t that driver who just cut me off, know who i am? or i can take a cue from the program and learn to handle the minor distractions of living in the real world with a boit of grace. i know for me, that learning to be patient is the path, as i seemed to have been born without much patience or tolerance at all.
so offf to the streets and into the this cool grey morning.

∞ DT ∞