โ i need to spend time with other recovering addicts because โ
Posted: Fri, Dec 16, 2011 07:51:16 AM
they WILL detect my complacency before i will.
of course, this was not the first thing on my mind as i kick back and enjoy the ride to work this morning. i had to finish my seasonal shopping binge first! and then of course my daintily snippet to post to FaceBook, and finally this exercise, which would seem to indicate that the last thing i want to write about is the comfortable state of complacency, that i can find myself in, from time to time.
well with all of those distractions out of the way, i guess all that is left to do, is to dive in head first! because i have some days and have received some gifts as a result of having some days in a row, i GET a bit of the grace of recovery. there really are no dark and ominous issues coloring my journey at this time and as a result of the grace i have, it is tough to be vigilant and diligent in working the corrective part of the program no not STEPS 10 through 12, they keep me grounded in an active recovery program. it is STEPS 4 through 9 that i am referring to, the exact place i happen to be sitting at. i want the gifts to keep on coming in. i want to have greater insight and understanding of who i am and my place in the world, and yet there is no internal or external pressure to jump in and start writing that inventory. so when i read about the smoke of complacency and the fire of relapse, i step back for a minute and ponder whether or not it is something that i am experiencing in my program. the honest answer is that today, even with all the issues with change in my life that are going on, i do have an active program of recovery and i do NEED to get writing on my step work. the wonderful world or shades of gray! so with that in mind, i will post this entry and get myself ready to do what i am being paid for, namely walk up the mall, sit down and start writing rules and rules and rules to send to the testers. it is a great day to be clean.
of course, this was not the first thing on my mind as i kick back and enjoy the ride to work this morning. i had to finish my seasonal shopping binge first! and then of course my daintily snippet to post to FaceBook, and finally this exercise, which would seem to indicate that the last thing i want to write about is the comfortable state of complacency, that i can find myself in, from time to time.
well with all of those distractions out of the way, i guess all that is left to do, is to dive in head first! because i have some days and have received some gifts as a result of having some days in a row, i GET a bit of the grace of recovery. there really are no dark and ominous issues coloring my journey at this time and as a result of the grace i have, it is tough to be vigilant and diligent in working the corrective part of the program no not STEPS 10 through 12, they keep me grounded in an active recovery program. it is STEPS 4 through 9 that i am referring to, the exact place i happen to be sitting at. i want the gifts to keep on coming in. i want to have greater insight and understanding of who i am and my place in the world, and yet there is no internal or external pressure to jump in and start writing that inventory. so when i read about the smoke of complacency and the fire of relapse, i step back for a minute and ponder whether or not it is something that i am experiencing in my program. the honest answer is that today, even with all the issues with change in my life that are going on, i do have an active program of recovery and i do NEED to get writing on my step work. the wonderful world or shades of gray! so with that in mind, i will post this entry and get myself ready to do what i am being paid for, namely walk up the mall, sit down and start writing rules and rules and rules to send to the testers. it is a great day to be clean.
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