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to realize my dreams.
getting started on this is the roughest part, as i am quite weary of starting these off with as i sit here, or any of the very few choices i make to prime the pump and allow my muse to take over my fingers. as that inspiration builds, what i heard this morning when i was quiet was all about a patent trolling company, that makes nothing, owns nothing of any value, and extracts its pound of flesh through rather spurious means, blocking any real productive company or developer from creating innovative and yes valuable works. i guess there is a bit of passion here after all, and as i dig into what that may be a metaphor for, in my life.
just as that company and many like contribute absolutely nothing of value, and do not get me wrong, although the fact that this company exists because of a broken patent system, there are many companies, who actually invent useful products and are deserving of protecting their protects through patents. that is, however, a digression and way out there. as i was saying, just as that company produces nothing but barriers to innovation, so it was with the part of me i call addiction.it erected roadblocks to happiness, with the false promise that if i catered to that part of me, i would get what i wanted, “just one more, and your dreams will be realized!”
the sad part was i paid and paid, and the price that was extracted from me was far more than i would have ever given anyone else, not the least was the abandonment of my dreams, hopes and aspirations. recovery, like some savvy judge in district court, shows me what addiction is and provides me the means to step beyond paying the price and truly become free in spirit. just like a patent troll,. never goes away, there is always another useless piece of IP in their portfolio, to slap down the next company that dares to bring something innovative to the world, the addict within, always has another false promise i can use against myself, to block me from becoming the man i have always wanted to be. when i live an program of active recovery, the addict within is kept in check and the price i pay, has rewards far beyond the immediate gratification of an itch that needs to be scratched.
speaking of becoming something else, the time has come to run off the calories i have consumed over the past 24 hours. that was an activity i did in active addiction, but not for the reasons i do it today. in those days, it was to look good, today it is to feel and BE good. so off to the streets i go, and the patent troll, that is the addict within, is stymied for at least right now.

∞ DT ∞