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Sat, Jun 14, 2014 07:40:24 AM
∼ when i first began searching for a POWER ∼
posted: Sat, Jun 14, 2014 07:40:24 AM
greater than myself, i got stuck in old beliefs or ideas. this is certainly true, and while my journey has been a long and arduous one, i have written about that journey, in detail, time and again. suffice it to say, that today i have a POWER that fuels my recovery and i trust that POWER to provide me the opportunity to get everything i need today.
i did, however, hear this morning, that what is going on inside of me, is a battle about loyalty and my current employer. things may be changing and even so, for the first time ever, i brought work home with for the weekend. of course, it was on my mind all night long. i dreamt about the dang task at hand, i tossed and turned and generally had a rough night, right up until the point i finally surrendered and got up out of bed. do i believe that the POWER that fuels my recovery was trying to tell me something? maybe, but what i am certain of, is that i am trying to tell myself something, namely to use a common bromide, do not burn my bridges, especially ones i have yet to cross. i have painted myself into another spiritual corner and not quite sure why i did something that insane. i am not quite sure what corner i have painted myself into, but what i do know, is something about my current job and my plans for the weekend are interfering with my serenity to the extent that this afternoon, i will take care of what needs to be taken care of!
what else is going on? well having had 24 more hours to consider the last corner i found myself in, what i need to do, is learn to say no. whether or not i look good, if i do not want to do something i NEED to be honest about it. in that same vein, i do not want to work this weekend, and in that instance i will. this is purely voluntary and no matter how good or bad it makes me look, it is the next right thing to do. i do not need to be lazy and do nothing today, but i can spread all of this out and have time to play, time to work and time, well just some time to do nothing at all. and as the the old saying goes, in everything iuts season and it is time to get moving out into the real world. it is also time to say it is a great day to be clean!
i did, however, hear this morning, that what is going on inside of me, is a battle about loyalty and my current employer. things may be changing and even so, for the first time ever, i brought work home with for the weekend. of course, it was on my mind all night long. i dreamt about the dang task at hand, i tossed and turned and generally had a rough night, right up until the point i finally surrendered and got up out of bed. do i believe that the POWER that fuels my recovery was trying to tell me something? maybe, but what i am certain of, is that i am trying to tell myself something, namely to use a common bromide, do not burn my bridges, especially ones i have yet to cross. i have painted myself into another spiritual corner and not quite sure why i did something that insane. i am not quite sure what corner i have painted myself into, but what i do know, is something about my current job and my plans for the weekend are interfering with my serenity to the extent that this afternoon, i will take care of what needs to be taken care of!
what else is going on? well having had 24 more hours to consider the last corner i found myself in, what i need to do, is learn to say no. whether or not i look good, if i do not want to do something i NEED to be honest about it. in that same vein, i do not want to work this weekend, and in that instance i will. this is purely voluntary and no matter how good or bad it makes me look, it is the next right thing to do. i do not need to be lazy and do nothing today, but i can spread all of this out and have time to play, time to work and time, well just some time to do nothing at all. and as the the old saying goes, in everything iuts season and it is time to get moving out into the real world. it is also time to say it is a great day to be clean!
∞ DT ∞
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While the author is a member of a 12 Step recovery fellowship, these writings are not intended to endorse or express the published wisdom of any fellowship.
These writings are not meant to be socially or politically correct, and if you take issue with any opinions expressed, please seek the guidance of someone wiser than me.
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☯ The Tao that can be spoken is not the eternal Tao ☯
by Lao-Tse
Translated by James Legge
Book 1
1) Not to value and employ men of superior ability is the way to keep
the people from rivalry among themselves; not to prize articles which
are difficult to procure is the way to keep them from becoming thieves;
not to show them what is likely to excite their desires is the way
to keep their minds from disorder.