โ major setbacks in my life and the insecurity such events may give rise to โฆ
Posted: Sat, Jun 14, 2008 02:45:54 PM
...the return of my old, inadequate ideas. i need to assure myself that my Higher Power has not abandoned me. well the old versus the new. quite a battle to be waging inside my head, however most days the new triumphs and the old loses. today is one of those days. no i have had no major setbacks, nor am i feeling out of sorts with my HIGHER POWER, i am just sort of off. nothing to write home about, and it is barely worth mentioning, but since i did, i think i will continue down that path. who knows what is really going on, lots of change, a new grand baby, work by the bucket loads, and physical pain from working out far too many days in a row. in fact i had to consciously choose to take the day off this morning and perhaps it is the lack of endorphins that is making me feel a bit off. it really does not matter, i have enough to do, to distract myself, until i start to feel spot on, or laying my head down to go to sleep this evening. so it is off to see a sponsee and see if he is really ready to embark on a ninth step or if he is just blowing smoke, time will tell and you know what, just thinking about doing a bit of recovery stuff is making me feel better. life is life and i am where i am, but i do know that, like all things, this too shall pass.
∞ DT ∞