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Sat, Oct 4, 2014 04:46:00 PM
§ there is a power in the meetings, §
posted: Sat, Oct 4, 2014 04:46:00 PM
a common bond among the members, a life to the program that i cannot do without. so here i sit in California, trying desperately to fix a problem in Colorado, remotely, and of course i am failing miserably. so the trick for me right here and right now is to give it one more try, and then let go allow myself to be where i am, not where i think i need to be. which of course is what i am hearing as i sit here wondering WTF is going on.
back to the here and now. i need to run to the grocery store and get some room supplies. i want to do a bit of research of what to do in the local vicinity. be right back.
well not quite, it has been several hours, been to the store, lounged by the pool, chatted up the relatives of the bride and groom and generally did my best not to embarrass my significant other. now sitting here, waiting to get dressed up to melt in the near 100 degree heat. so chilling with the other 85%, pretending to be one of them. is certainly an interesting way to pas the day, especially when i have to get around the fact that i never had kids, and graduated from college in 2004, instead of 1980. that is certainly the beauty of being a member, no matter how i got to where i am today, all of them know the feeling of not growing up, of not being able to commit or take responsibility for their lives, for marking time, and never accomplishing much of anything, except a permanent record as part of thee legal system.
well, today, i will not participate in the champagne toast. when the drinking get to the point it becomes intolerable to me, ii have a graceful exit strategy.
well the time has come to get into my wedding clothes and look good for the next 2.2 seconds.
back to the here and now. i need to run to the grocery store and get some room supplies. i want to do a bit of research of what to do in the local vicinity. be right back.
well not quite, it has been several hours, been to the store, lounged by the pool, chatted up the relatives of the bride and groom and generally did my best not to embarrass my significant other. now sitting here, waiting to get dressed up to melt in the near 100 degree heat. so chilling with the other 85%, pretending to be one of them. is certainly an interesting way to pas the day, especially when i have to get around the fact that i never had kids, and graduated from college in 2004, instead of 1980. that is certainly the beauty of being a member, no matter how i got to where i am today, all of them know the feeling of not growing up, of not being able to commit or take responsibility for their lives, for marking time, and never accomplishing much of anything, except a permanent record as part of thee legal system.
well, today, i will not participate in the champagne toast. when the drinking get to the point it becomes intolerable to me, ii have a graceful exit strategy.
well the time has come to get into my wedding clothes and look good for the next 2.2 seconds.
∞ DT ∞
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While the author is a member of a 12 Step recovery fellowship, these writings are not intended to endorse or express the published wisdom of any fellowship.
These writings are not meant to be socially or politically correct, and if you take issue with any opinions expressed, please seek the guidance of someone wiser than me.
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☯ The Tao that can be spoken is not the eternal Tao ☯
by Lao-Tse
Translated by James Legge
Book 1
3) Hence, those with whom he agrees as to the Tao have the happiness
of attaining to it; those with whom he agrees as to its manifestation
have the happiness of attaining to it; and those with whom he agrees
in their failure have also the happiness of attaining (to the Tao).
(But) when there is not faith sufficient (on his part), a want of
faith (in him) ensues (on the part of the others).