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that i am learning to **listen** for anyhow? there certainly is the pat answer that i can roll off my tongue with little or no effort -- GOD*s will for me and the power to carry it out. that is often called the small quiet voice from within. taken together, those seem purely logical and without a doubt, where i went for all those years when meditation appeared to bring little or no results to my life. what my dogged pursuit of doing something that did not have much of a benefit to me, ended up doing, is laying the foundation for the gift that twice daily meditation has brought to me life, these days. i still am clueless past the pat answer of what it is that i am trying to hear, but i know what i feel and the balance i am achieving with my meditation practice.
moving on, this is late start Thursday for me. as the nature of my service efforts requires me to be in a place that is five miles away from where i work, i choose to stay there after i get finished working. up until today, that usually meant taking my work out clothes and doing a run in the afternoon. well it is going to be around 88° today, and for me anyhow, running under the sun in the upper eighties is not an activity i cherish, so i shifted my day, so i could do my workout in the fifties and i get to stay at work a bit later, rather than try to fill the hours between work and service. i am not sure how the rest of this day is going to work out, but so far, it has been pretty good. i meditated, i ran, i showered, i had breakfast and now i am getting ready to post this little ditty. up to this point, everything is going just as i planned it, but the real world beckons and that world often alters my plans, so it is up to me to do what i can to accept that as reality.
if i was going to add anything, it would be, that just for today, i am grateful that i never gave up, when meditating even for five minutes a day, seemed to lack any benefit. being a stubborn type and having the DESIRE to get something that others had achieved, propelled me to continue my seemingly futile practice, long enough to finally “get it.” i may still be a beginner, but i am a willing beginner, as i see the benfits of doing what is suggested i do, on a daily basis.

∞ DT ∞