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ah, my tale of woe and of being a victim, is becoming a very overplayed and a tiresome refrain. as i sit here this morning, i feel the pressure to move on and leave the past behind me. what was done to me and how i reacted to that event and its subsequent follow-ups is not something i need to carry with me anymore. in fact, it is time to leave that house of pain and be okay in the here and now. that does not mean forgetting, burying or swallowing anything, let me be very clear about that. what it means; is that i got hurt, reacted badly and carried that weight for far too long. when i feel anything bubbling up to the surface, i “own” that feeling, respond to it and move on. i no longer need to be defined by what once was, even if that once was was less than a year ago.
now i am locked out of my work account and may not get the chance to work-out in the cool of the morning, as i have to see if someone responds to my request for help. it is sometimes tough to be working in a remote environment, but i am grateful that i have the job i have wanted for the past few years. i know, be careful what one asks for. instead of fretting and fuming over what i have no power over, i think i just might step out for a quick workout anyhow.of course, if Murphy has his way, the second i get dressed and start my workout, i will get pinged about how to fix my issue. oh well, i can either worry or sit here and fret and i think i need to get moving and get some steps in. today i do not need to be a victim, play a victim or feel as if i am being saddled with a fate i do not deserve. life is what it is and it is time for me to accept what is and move along the dusty trail.

∞ DT ∞