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Posted: Tue, Nov 26, 2024 12:39:25 PM
some far-off island where i am not **supposed to** do anything! sitting here on my way to Chicago, i am not sure what the seed for this will be. i now the topic was responsibility and i feel very responsible this morning. i only forgot two things, my Air-pods and my knee brace. oh well, i will survive and actually be okay. it is not as if i am going to the hinterlands, and i will be able to get a set of Air-pods in Chicago. the kneebrace? well i will see how things go, it is still true that i maybe able to find one somewhere in the vast Chicagoland.
coming back to the topic, i know that skipping out on Thanksgiving preparations to attend a funeral of my Aunt Judy was a set of conflicting responsibilities. i really do not have the desire to go to Chicago, at all. i would prefer to be lazy, smoke cigars and nap for the next two days, but things just did not spin out that way. perhaps, i will get to do both and find a meeting this afternoon, once again i am going somewhere that will present lots of opportunities.
i cannot believe the guy next to me got on a plane when sick. at least he is wearing a mask, and not interacting with me, i may also look for some paper masks for my journey home.
i guess i can say that the last time i was in Chicagoland i was at the peak of my active addiction and my cousins have never seen me clean. they may or may not be in for a surprise when i graciously decline a alcoholic beverage this evening at dinner. i know i will be present for them over the next few days and will be able to offer my support as they deal with burying their Mom.
i know my recovery will need to be my paramount responsibility today and if i feel twitchy or as if no one will care if i have one beer, i will NEED to find a meeting or make that call, ironically one of my peers who once had a bit of clean time, relapsed on a flight to Chicago. he has struggle with recovery ever since, so i will use the lesson he provided to be a bit more vigilant and responsible for gauging my spiritual fitness.
i may have another hour of flight time left, but i am out of stuff to write about. i will pot this later and fill in the blanks that i lack while cut off from the online world to which i am accustomed to being a part of, just for today.
coming back to the topic, i know that skipping out on Thanksgiving preparations to attend a funeral of my Aunt Judy was a set of conflicting responsibilities. i really do not have the desire to go to Chicago, at all. i would prefer to be lazy, smoke cigars and nap for the next two days, but things just did not spin out that way. perhaps, i will get to do both and find a meeting this afternoon, once again i am going somewhere that will present lots of opportunities.
i cannot believe the guy next to me got on a plane when sick. at least he is wearing a mask, and not interacting with me, i may also look for some paper masks for my journey home.
i guess i can say that the last time i was in Chicagoland i was at the peak of my active addiction and my cousins have never seen me clean. they may or may not be in for a surprise when i graciously decline a alcoholic beverage this evening at dinner. i know i will be present for them over the next few days and will be able to offer my support as they deal with burying their Mom.
i know my recovery will need to be my paramount responsibility today and if i feel twitchy or as if no one will care if i have one beer, i will NEED to find a meeting or make that call, ironically one of my peers who once had a bit of clean time, relapsed on a flight to Chicago. he has struggle with recovery ever since, so i will use the lesson he provided to be a bit more vigilant and responsible for gauging my spiritual fitness.
i may have another hour of flight time left, but i am out of stuff to write about. i will pot this later and fill in the blanks that i lack while cut off from the online world to which i am accustomed to being a part of, just for today.
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